Tuesday, April 26, 2011

抒情篇。。。(不要笑噢。)

人总是充满矛盾, 可能只是我自己(自己觉得)
有时, 我真的猜不透你在想什么。
你的眼神、举动都让我疑惑。
你说得对,可能是我想太多了。
我承认。
但是, 并非我要去想啊!
有时,真的会无法控制那种情绪。
浪潮来时,怎么停也停不下。

明知道不可能了, 可是时不时,还会想着
那段
童话里的故事。。。
美好的回忆、时光,
多希望你我曾经还是曾经。
不曾改变。
很自然地
沟通、说话。
不会太敏感。

嘴巴总是会犯罪。
不是说错了话,就是说漏嘴。
如果当时。。。。。。。。。。
。。。。。
。。。。。

我保持沉默。
结局会是这样吗?

其实,你已让我知道
你我不会。。。。开始。。。。
虽然你没亲口说, 但是我已察觉了。
我还是不放弃。
你,很不一样,不像前者, 说放就放。。
你当时就一直好像给我不断的动力与希望。。。。不能轻言放弃。。。。
时间的煎熬与连续不断的挑战,
我一一都克服了。 。。

时间走了。 你也走了。 。献上我真诚的祝福。。。盼你衣锦还乡的那一天。。
可是, 命运的安排就是那么奇妙。
你我的距离又重新拉近。
可是,过后,就好像越来越远了。。。直到现在。。。依然是。。。回不去从前。。。

这段时间,我也有想放弃的时候,
我做不到。。。。
因为你一直在我脑海里不出现你的时候出现了。。。

你的一句可能没什么。。。
可是对我来说
很重大。。。

我一直认为我的诚意不够,做的不够好,选错了时间,用错了方式。

过了2011年2月里的某日。。。。
我正式
放弃。。。。
其实, 我很不甘心。。。。
但是, 因为是你说的, 我只好顺从,免得后患无穷。

其实我一直都猜不透你在想什么。。

可是,最近,又不知道为什么,有时,脑袋还会出现你。。。
但是,这次我以我最强的力量,抵挡着了。。。不知又能撑多久。。


伤痕累累的心, 依然还在。。。
时间就能磨灭这些痕迹吗?
我的付出、诚意,可能不足于让你感动。。
但是,我每次都尽力了。
每次装作不在乎,
其实我都很留意你的。。。。。
你是否也这样呢?






把情感抒发、发泄了。。。
心情会好过些。。。
如果你经过此,不晓得你会有什么反应呢?
盼。

Monday, April 25, 2011

everything is over......
i mean spring semester is officially over....
yeah!!!!!

Pangkor trip
was
FUN
AWESOME..
MEMORABLE..
EXCITING...

thanks to the organizer and planner LZF...
he is great and considerate.....
good job...

anticipating the coming
SUMMER!!!

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

audit?or not?

is all this while worthy for it?
i keep asking myself.....

is it worth?
is it good?
or is it the other way round?
i seriously need someone or many people's opinion....
somehow, i felt like i am too dependent.....cant even make a stand for myself
when different people give me different comments.....

for this moment, it is regarding to the calculus....
i want to audit it, but then i am still thinking..
if i audit it, can i do better than this one? sure, since i regret(too late), i will do better...=.=, but who know?
if i don't want to audit, can i just get a pass for it? which is C if not mistaken....
at the same time, they said calculus is going to be credit transferred and they need at least a B for it....yet i feel i am not capable for it since i screw exam....
if cant get B, then i need to retake it in US?
if i audit it, who can assure that i wont audit other subject anymore like calculus 3? since unknown is always waiting for us...

when all sort of these question marks appear in my mind, i start to stress up myself.....i cant decide on my own!!
i will always think of what if i audit and what if i dont....
i have asked the same question to same people since yesterday...if i continue to ask, i think they will piss of as well and get annoyed with me...><

it's time to think critically again...
when i start to think, i think of i am not studying well for the calculus....=.= sad...
yet, who is gonna to be blamed? me? or the hectic life that we have this semester?
why other people are so smart, can get it very fast....

everything is over...and coming over again....
again...
at this very moment, i am still wondering that
should i audit calculus for this semester or not...

is that i am finding troubles for myself all this while?????


Saturday, April 16, 2011

END OF SPRING SEMESTER....

soon later, not very soon, yet not very late....
spring sem is end of story besides the coming final exam...

what is the words of this sem?
busy???

having fun ^^
awesome
sleep late every night
copy here copy there
test test test
quiz quiz quiz
assignments
night night and night events went around
from halloween night to speech...
thrilling calculus....
got screwed of exam marks
many nice lecturers...
many birthday party every month

jogging
keep fit...
save money, yet not..
just spend on starbucks just now...haha...only 2nd time in my life..

went sepang watching Formula 1, enjoy the blasting sound
and of course the pretty hot sexy girls, including circuit girls and visitors^^



and the anticipating pangkor trip as well....looking forward...

summary of the spring semester, perhaps...

sometimes happy,
sometimes sorrow
sometimes joyful,
sometimes stress...
FUN!


Thursday, April 14, 2011

i am feeling so great that almost all of my assignments have been finished(except for maple project)...yeah!!
today, now 3.37a.m, i am sitting in front of my laptop and sitting on the chair since yesterday around 12 p.m...
wow...i can't believe myself for sitting so long that more than 12 hours!!!! marvelous!!!...hahaha....
i can't even realize that the time keep flying...


everything is gonna end soon... tomorrow Saturday will begin the final exam with the ethics tests....=.=
there are most like to have more than 100 slides?! to study and MEMORIZE!!!! >.<
have to burn my souls again.....study till late night...haiz....

be optimistic, there is still one more week only....one more week!!!
we are going to say bye bye to the spring semester......
have to say bye to my fellow classmates whom i like to get along......== hopefully we will still in the same class next semester...
oh ya~... next semester is summer!!!0.0
wow~~ another great semester which is truly could be enjoyed through, according to people thought.......



life goes on...keep tough....endure it....

Friday, April 8, 2011

there is approximately two weeks to go.....
two more weeks!!
we are going to end this freaking busy sem.... :)
by the way, i am anticipating the trio to Pangkor island as well.....
is it a happy trip? annoying? sad? excited?
or memorable?
i wonder now....=.=

there is a specific group of people sound like annoyed with some group of people....
yes it is true...
why would this thing happen?
even among our community....sad case...><


maybe they are too bossy?
maybe they want to be boss but don't to make decision?
maybe they just love the way they are?
maybe they want people to tolerate with them but they are too demanding?
maybe they just like to make people annoying?
maybe they have diverse thinking of mind?
maybe they just simply wanna make noise?
maybe they just too childish?
maybe.........maybe....and maybe....


i just hope everything will be fine when we head to the Pangkor island trip.....



yet,
good luck to all of us for final exam!!! :)XD

Sunday, April 3, 2011

in this moment i feel everything moving in fast lane.....
time goes fast....
i still have freaking lot of assignments to deal with and dew test in a week...
this gonna to burn out my health seriously....=.= in the late night....

money out of my pocket fast as well.....
in about 2 weeks, i have spent like rm 300? or more than that.....i don't know what did i bought
><
money just being drew piece by piece, slide by slide.....without my concious....

in this very moment
again,
i wish that i could
keep the time in nitrogen liquid storage,
freeze it under zero kelvin....
and......


never revive it again.......