audit?or not?

is all this while worthy for it?

i keep asking myself.....

is it worth?

is it good?

or is it the other way round?

i seriously need someone or many people's opinion....

somehow, i felt like i am too dependent.....cant even make a stand for myself

when different people give me different comments.....

for this moment, it is regarding to the calculus....

i want to audit it, but then i am still thinking..

if i audit it, can i do better than this one? sure, since i regret(too late), i will do better...=.=, but who know?

if i don't want to audit, can i just get a pass for it? which is C if not mistaken....

at the same time, they said calculus is going to be credit transferred and they need at least a B for it....yet i feel i am not capable for it since i screw exam....

if cant get B, then i need to retake it in US?

if i audit it, who can assure that i wont audit other subject anymore like calculus 3? since unknown is always waiting for us...

when all sort of these question marks appear in my mind, i start to stress up myself.....i cant decide on my own!!

i will always think of what if i audit and what if i dont....

i have asked the same question to same people since yesterday...if i continue to ask, i think they will piss of as well and get annoyed with me...><

it's time to think critically again...

when i start to think, i think of i am not studying well for the calculus....=.= sad...

yet, who is gonna to be blamed? me? or the hectic life that we have this semester?

why other people are so smart, can get it very fast....

everything is over...and coming over again....

again...

at this very moment, i am still wondering that

should i audit calculus for this semester or not...

is that i am finding troubles for myself all this while?????