exam eve...

almost 2 months i have been here. it was happened just a blink of eyes. now i am counting down the date to go home. another 3 days to go. just another i can sleep on my lovely bed at home, meet my dearest family and of course my 3 cute doggies. however, i have to pull through the ordeal before my sweet dream comes to me. i have to bear myself into study mode now. but the matter is that i don't have the mood to study now.!!! it's unknown of feeling now. i see my friend are quite equipped with the enough knowledge, they put me in stress now and i still don't get clear of what i am struggling damn hard to understand!!oh no!!!!i am going to suicide right now. it's just a joke. i don't feel i would study right now. i just raise my bet for the exam tomorrow. perhaps it will be not that worse as i think. let's pray for it. i admit that i can't master one language very well. this is a weakness of mine.
i feel bad now. my grammar is so suck. verb, tenses, part of speech....argh!! i am very confusing now!!*sigh*
i want to sleep now, and hope my wish will be fulfilled as i could just score my exams above average. i hope tomorrow i have the enough *kick* to write my essay and perhaps something that pop out in my mind would tune up my my essay.....
jiayou !!!!^^dont worried, be happy.

special post

this special post is directed to my friend ,Lee Yoon Chye. thanks him for getting me a Chat Box in my blog which i have been struggled for years. hahahaha.
thx my fren!

\MERDEKA EVE/

wow. really awesome. yesterday midnight we were having our *men talk session*. since long time ago, i never join myself in such big deal of chatting. what we were talking about? well, the topic of girl must not be absent. i felt nostalgia of telling all those of my *failure*. of course, i was pain when i faced the failure for first. no pain no gain. be reminded i am okay right now. ya i should. people should always look forward. slept for 4 hours did not adequate for me as i have my class on 8am. yet, i have my special weapon--nescafe...hahaha. i was getting the lowest marks for moral in my class and did not feel so bad when i realized i got a partner. but of course i am optimistic with my scores--15.5/20. ^^
yea! tomorrow we have a holiday again. our malaysia independence day 31 aug, previously, i often saw the acts of patriotism were painting the town with our nation flags, on cars, building and houses. however, i am wondering. i seem being isolated as i could found the car or most building hanging our nation flags, just a small amount did. they are not patriotic or maybe just the place here or throughout the entire Malaysia? 53 years of freedom destiny will move on after a decades? or just within a few years? not being colonized by others, but the problem that ruined our life. what problem? i should not comment on it, but as a caring and patriotic Malaysian, you should know and you must know. you should be omniscient of the issue that have been provoked nowadays. try to figure it out and come out with the solution based on our wisdom and justice, not by feeling and emotion. come on, our countrymen! let's Malaysia be well-known with its peace, justice and wisdom. on the contrary, not being infamous with the gang wars and crimes. the sonorous voice of unity and peace could be very loud if we stand by together and shout out with mighty power. Let’s the deafening roar stuns the world!

Ok, tomorrow is Hari Merdeka. wish my lovely country Malaysia would always peaceful and out of miseries. All the people let’s together shout, “merdeka!merdeka! merdeka!” for the only Malaysia.

1 malaysia.!!

fuckin stupid p1wimax!!!

phew! after the rick and roll of playing cs, quite tired. it seemed i am the man in the match, holding the rifles, shooting the enemy, being killed and killed and KILLED again!. i hope one day i could experience the 3D games. woah! that must be damn nice. the virtual become real, leads me to think about the inception. sometimes, i just wish i can't wake up from dream that is so nice and sweet as well. the power of dreams!
tonight i should sleep earlier as i am lack of sleep. the black ring starts to appear around my eyes, like panda. i want get rid of this. long time i didn't sleep at 11pm. perhaps later i would.

time flies. it's already 2nd day of 3 days weekend. it's getting me quite nervous right now. mid term test is just around the corner. yet, i just started my revision on math. others, i don't when i am gonna to start. *sigh*. since the bad experience of math ruined me, i scared of the feeling of failure. in fact, mid term test is just a little part of cgpa, but i can't put it down as everyone is concerning about this so much, make me stressed. when i stressed, i just can't put myself into proper study mode.
well, today i slept at 5.00 in the dawn. but i woke up at 11 something. quite sleepy. but hungry. let's go Mc D. yeah! finally i could take a deep breath. nothing special. i just had 2 burgers which exactly fill my stomach. walked back to hostel then. with my friend again. 2 of us was just like the adventurer always. the shady sunny day was so just perfect, though i sweat too.
=.= continued my math again. struggling over just a few questions took me for eons of time.....*sigh*
come on, baby!!!yeah!^^

good FRIday...

i have a sweet dream today. guess what is it. of course, i dream of you. haha. why? since long time ago, i never have a big sleep like this. today i sleep till "full tank". i woke up at 1030 morning. and i ate almost half loaf of the gardenia butterscotch breads with the yummy peanut jam. as usual as i said, i am the nescafe addict. while having a smell good nescafe, i was completing my theology assignment--life after death. well, i am doing on the buddhism concept of it. google through the website, i found more knowledge about my religion. it's true. before this, i don't know a lot about my religion. okay, so it can be said that internet provides many things and also info. So, i just copy and edit. i am not plagiarizing but take it as reference. so it could not be criminal at all. yea! i am done now. so happy i could reach 4 pages of my part of content.
by the way, now i flash back to morning. i have been screwed by 2 math quizzes. i read through my text book and note again and again for few times, and even seek help from my friends. phew! it was just quite exhaustive master piece of my effort, i lastly found the solution. thanks God!.
today i can't figure out why i am so noob in basketball court evening just now. walao eh! i can't really shoot in the ball. my hands, my legs were just like offending me. i just felt like no energy, though i ate. on the contrary, the malay friend who puasa-ing could perform quite well, even run here run there, seems like no puasa. i don't know. speechless on this.
come on la..(quotation from leo^^) weekend what. so just enjoy la, guys! yoyoyo...we were just having a great dinner with 5 pizzas. wow! taste mighty good. this was the 2nd time we ordered Domino pizzas. perhaps it will be 3rd and 4th time or even more, eating pizzas.
staying in the hostel, nothing to do except study and PLAY GAMES!!!! playing computer games together is a great time with all my friends here. yeah! terrorist win! ^^we could feel our adrenaline were just boost up immediately. really exotic. i wonder if one day we don't play games, what will we to be?
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2012 comes true!!!!!

3 holidays...

yeah ! tomorrow is holiday. actually is today. now is already 1.30 a.m. yet i haven't sleep. i still awake with my laptop in front me now. although i was playing computer game--counter strike just now for about 4 hours, but i still can't fall asleep. my friends as well. 3 days free of classes i am still wondering what am i going to do next besides study. i think of going out, spend the last weekend before go home next week. but i depend on my friend too as i don't want to go alone, though sometimes i did. Sunway? Mid valley? One utama? i had been before, and i quite able to navigate the place already. go to a movie may be my choice then. repomen, last air bender, salt, inception, i had watched in this month. top ten movies of this monthi have already watched four, add one more would be half. break my record in my life that went for movies five times in a month. however, i have to plan for a budget outing that spend around rm 50 can do.
3 days free, i need to study of course, and do my theology presentation plus assignment. about 70 hours for me is really more than enough, but sometimes it won't. my time management is not good. i could spend more time in doing craps rather than produce masterpiece of works. but i still persist with my wills.
hope i will make use of these 3 days wisely in completing all my stuff...

25th Aug

everything is perfectly done. first is the wrap up activity which involves our presentation about childhood memory again.next is the toefl writing test. although i am not even know about my grades on any writing yet, i still have the confidence as well. i get my essay printed in toefl lab also, though somebody said it can't be used. but i managed to use it to print out my stuff. maybe i just simply restart the computer and it works. as i believe it can work, it really work. but others don't know this. perhaps one day i will tell them about the solution. next time la. since i have registered for my sat test on 9th oct, i just put down some burden on me and continued another stuff. by the way, i am also thinking about the sat 2 subject test. should i take or not? i haven't decide yet. some of my friend had decided and registered already. i am just start to think about it. but it doesn't very important. more important things are coming which are out mid term test!. ya, i admit it since i was failed in my first ever reading quiz last week. i afraid of my cgpa marks would drop sharply by the end of semester. so, first of all, i started doing my reading exercises and i found that i am not quite ready for that and need more practices.
tomorrow will be a pre-cal math quiz again as usual. of course, i will be the tanker or shield for friends again. i have studied my note but i still blur about some terms. perhaps as my friend said"everything will be okay when it is coming".
today i got a sudden shock when my friends told me that my other friend requested the hp number from a girl in ausmat programme. wow! bravo! he is really courage enough i thought in mind. purposely he met the girl and made friend with her, i am quite envy with him. Haha... at least he got and not me. maybe next time i will not go out with him as he already has a new girl friend to be with him. Haha....it just a hypothesis. maybe i would like to have someone to go out with me too. of course is girl. haha. i can't stop myself from laughing since i knew he met that girl and i am thinking about it now. maybe tomorrow my faith one will come. haha. laughing again, haha....^^...shhhh....
remain silence....whisper through the air.....you will get what i mean..........

SAt Canceled!!!!

SAT!!! tomorrow cancel!!
Gosh! That's the good news I really want to hear about. Since last week, sat test was postponed and would be held on tomorrow. Because of the old library had been occupied and our teacher didn't manage to get us a location to do the test. First, I wondered when my friend from other class told that it was canceled. Yet, I got the answer. everyone was very happy and excited to hear about that happy news. No sat test means that i can go back earlier to hostel tomorrow. yeah! i could sleep and complete all my incomplete stuff tomorrow. Hope so.

I think I am addicted to Nescafe already. Why? Today I have proven that I always tend to let my eyes close while classes on. I forced myself to keep my eyes open crystal clear. I forced so hard. I pretend not sleep. because i don't want my AAP marks to be affected. i had tried so hard and finally it came to the end of class. well, the another class started again. i did the same thing. thus, i could say that there were the hardship for me. And here came the 2nd bad score. I didn't get the paper back yet, but teacher had told us there was only 3 girls passed for the reading quiz. suddenly, classroom was full of gloominess, everyone looked so down. i was too. yet, teacher kept cheer up us. By the way, there are mid term test next week. however, I am still dreaming right now and haven't take any action yet.

Life is not a bed of roses as my former teacher told. Now I have realized that what it means. Everyone will have their own painting. The process of painting is never ending. How about my painting, my art work of life? it is being done quite well and now there is a silly mistakes had taken place which bleached some beautiful scenes. it looked pale and dull and seemed like dead.
the scene is actually the part of human being couldn't live without...........it's now pain inside......only I know.....

bad score.....

today i have cry inside my heart.
the first period of lessons had ruined my feeling. i was quite down as i saw my own worst achievement ever in Math test. *sigh*. compared to the others, i could feel like i am the alien among them. they all just getting marks that higher than me a lot. i am so striking with my damn low math test marks. i am pained inside but didn't portray it. i kept myself silent. i couldn't blame anyone except myself. i admitted that i didn't study well the night before the test. i also don't know why. as i knew that i understand what the lesson about or what teacher taught, i know everything. yet, until the test, i seem became stupid, very stupid. i didn't even answer a question with full marks. as i referred back after test, it seemed like a piece of cake for me when my friend taught me the solution. *sigh* sad case. i am very sad actually with my scores. i know that there is only one way--do more. do more can really improve my scores. and i promise myself that i should take this as a lesson and won't repeat the mistake again. next week is the mid term test. i wish to i could perform the best for myself.

by the way, the moral test was done today. same thing i felt i am standing on the edge of great mountain, one careless mistake could kill me off. i don't have the enough confidence to answer the test, i just did whatever it came to my mind. i don't dare to look forward for the score next week.

is that the result like this that i really wanted? No, definitely. but, sometimes i like to procrastinate my study during free time to another time. i guess that why i am nearly fail my math test 1. i would pay more effort on that peculiar matter and the other test as well.
hopefully hope tomorrow will be nice day and the following days....

Leehom autograph....十八般武艺

yeah! i went Leehom autograph session with my gay friend again, yoon chye.
the way to one utama was not easy. we exchange several time buses and commuter as well. it took me 2 and a half hours. wow, quite an exhausting trip. finally, reached almost at noon. of course, my stomach kept on signaling me. i came to a shihlin outlets. great fried chicken chop rice. i mean huge size. have a warm welcome from bangladesh worker as he could speak English quite well with his accent, non-stop promoting. maybe he would get commission from sale.
still early for the autograph. watch a movie may fill up some time. repomen(18pl)--not really a good choice for movie as i could count the people in the theater room within my fingers. perhaps it was to early when we watched. quite unclear about that movie.
walk in to old town cafe. a place where is expensive in S.P and suddenly become the cheaper cafe in K.L sarcastically. took a nap there.
YOYOYO...finally, it came to autograph session. we walk in the area at 430pm while the event will be started at 6p. it actually challenge my patience. but it does not work as i don't feel the time passed slowly. well, i was standing at the back, far away from stage.
artists most probably will be late, and it did. everyone keep shouting loudly to show their enthusiasm to LeeHom, but i kept silent because if i shouted it didn't help much. "WOW"
first song he sang and it was the last too--你不知道的事。he sang very well, undeniable. because i stand aat the back so the pictures captures was not clear. he was wearing a black sunglasses, looking cool and handsome of course.
after rick and roll, my friend managed to get the autograph from him, but not me sadly. because i didn't plan to buy his album and i felt i was not so lucky to get as there were a lot a lot of people there. LeeHom would probably not finish signature-ing if the manager didn't stop the event. many people disappointed and cry. lastly, LeeHom so great and he promised to sign for the rest of all, and my friend was lucky one because he went back there with his determination and finally get the autograph. he successfully went near to LeeHom and stared him in no distance.
i was a bit regret by then, perhaps next time i ll not miss any chances like this to get the true autograph from artists.
it's tiring but worth...

great deals..

i played game and did some homework till 4.20 am. i drank a cup of nescafe before. it's no wonder why i could stay awake.i slept about 5 hours, and i laid on bed till 10 am. laziness has come. i can't manage to wash myself dirty clothes, had to send them to dobby. my friends were going to Mc D in S 2. they would like to use wifi there to download item and study there too. well, as i said before, Mc D is quite affordable to students, and also it is so generous anyway, giving the free grapes jam to everyone. my friends had a great deal with mc D and brought back about 50 packets of jam. haha!!yea. i' m done with my 2 essay for writing. i m now studying for the theology test on monday. however, i stuck myself in gaming world., someone please pull me out! but i still manage to get out actually. as the rewards for my achievements today, i played counter strike for at least 3 hours. wow. such a nice time. by the way, i never had a proper lunch as the stall did not run their business in puasa month in the noon. i didn't realise that. yet, i visit the pasar seksyen 6 for the first time. i was attracted to a cake-like dish--puding telur accordingly. well, let's have a try. however, it taste not so good and it would probably become disgusting when one eat it too much.
nevertheless, we, roomates plus 2 other friends decided to order Domino's pizza for dinner. yeah! we have had great deal with our great meal ever in hostel as for the celebration of getting money for government as allowance. Cheers!yes, anyway i have to thank my friend, mr GK for his Star Craft 2 game. i could have great deal with new game. thanks ya. wow, another nice game that impressed me so much, other than counter strike source. both of them are high graphic games which would definitely amusing.
left about 6 hours for my whole new journey, the journey to one utama......

pascal>>pressure

another week is almost gone. i'm getting closer to my home now. 2weeks only. today i did a test, reading one. actually not a test, it just a quiz but many student took it as test. but not me of course. well, this 2 weeks seem have a lot of things need to cover. essay i have to write two. theology assignments plus presentation before raya must be done. it is so suck that next monday we having mid term theology test!!!!argh!!! radio drama script somemore..really get screwed this time. *sigh*..i feel the pressure steps forward to find me already. inevitable. although people said we must enjoy weekends, but this not suit me right now. pressure!!!pressure!!!! again pressure!!! by the wat we have to register SAT test on our own...damn it..have to seek help later..*sigh*. don't know how to fill that silly form.

i need nescafe now. really need it. despite the taste, it pulls me out of sleep, though not good for health right now which is already midnight, have to awake for about 2 hours i plan. essay i'm coming, burn the midnight oil! why? why? maybe it's my fault. i want to attend LeeHom autograph day in 1 utama. once in the blue moon, hardly can get this great chance.

what m i going to do right now? don't hesitate. let's start to work. cheer up, man!!!

today's thrusday...

today's i considered myself have great achievements. why i say so? because i was not late to school in the morning (yesterday i was late to get in class). the second thing is i didn't fall asleep today! yeah! so happy that i made it. i think it is because of the NESCAFE that i drank. nescafe is great drinks ever! i love it so much. it pushed up my adrenaline to get more lively during the class. the writing class was after pre-calc class. write an outline of essay is more difficult than write an essay. throughout my entire study life, i never practice it as it takes much time on it than the essay i need to do. so i never waste my time of doing this outline.
i was quite happy that my class ended early and i could go back as soon. i have my gaming time and took a nap after. i was downloading a movie actually--Salt. haha. i'm gonna watch it this weekend.
ya i 'm done with the presentation of my childhood memory tomorrow. when i did that, i tend to flash back all the happy moment that i had. wow! that's nice. some embarrassing incidents came across my mind. that's silly and lousy i did. haha. well, i don't have my little pictures right now, but the memory still fresh in mind, for some.
different people may share different childhood. some are happy, some are dull, same are sad. for me, it should be exciting. i do appreciate every moment we could spend in our life and should make it meaningful and happy. after death, we don't know what we would be. but when we alive, we can choose to have either happy or sad. so people should do it wisely, choose the one which bring you satisfaction and excitement. happy always!!^^

nice trip--mid valley

after rick and roll in the class, finally came to the rest at 12 noon. i was getting more tired by time passed. i could everyone was studying on sat. of course, i was i the one too. i looked at 5000 vocab words in one handouts. i found myself exhausted. here come the *hero* came to me and said "SAT test is postponed to next week." GOSH!! i straight became happy. this time i should have party time. yeah! today is yoon chye birthday. we ahve planned to have a blast IF don't have sat test. we are lucky actually.
went to mid valley megamall. it took 2 hours journey. damn bored and journey. i fell asleep few times. the movie *inception* was on show for about 1 month. ya, we just watched it. quite a nice movie. again it all about life. very imaginative movie. we most probably to have more plan on watching movie as the price for wednesday is only rm7. quite affordable.
the time we had our dinner was quite rushing as we knew that it would take long time by then and reached home late. that's it. we reached cendana at 11 o'clock. by the way, we also had supper which is ordered for dinner actually. overall, we have fun and gained life experiences. the problem is we have no girl to accompany with. quite a sad case. well, it's okay. but then if have a girl accompany with, there will be a nice trip ever. haha^^ perhaps in the future it would be....who know? god know...

Sleeeeeeeppyyyyyy.....

what a sleepy day again...*sigh* from the morning again, i tend to close my eyes. hard to open. the feeling inside was very tired. in fact, i just woke up!. on the way to school, i slept in the bus. walking slowly but steadily to class. climbing up to 2nd floor was very long journey. after going to toilet, washed my face all that, i seemed to have a bit energy, waiting for teacher. however, teacher had something to do and came in class late. gosh! i m glad to hear that. i have a nap. just a while only, of course not enough for me. my sleepy eyes had a hard time.*sigh*. in fact, i use wise every single free moment. i quick did my stuff given by teacher and took a little doze. because i really i can't stand with my sleepiness. seconds by seconds minutes by minutes hours by hours. finally it came to rest time. yeah!!!(with my sleepy eyes on) i ate my lunch at alm cafe before i went to the library. i found myself a nice seat on the sofa with my earphone on and start playing songs. i slept there for 45 minutes. it's actually a nice place to visit and have a good time there. i would probably go there from today onwards. HAHA. very lousy but good for me^^..

yes final round of ATUSA junior election was coming! i could see all candidate get ready for that.. of course, i was the supporter for my friend, Lee Yoon Chye from Chicago for running the vice president. (applause!!) i also support my Austin friend as a vice secretary for that. in fact, she is a girl. she is quite anxious and nervous because her rival was my class rep who is quite strong. i could see her face was unusual. maybe sacred. i don't know. but definitely i support her forever.
by the way, Chye was one of the best candidate compete for V.P as i could seen. some people too formal some too casual and some too worried. But he didn't, just normal. very good.

sometimes, we cannot do what we actually think or hope for. sometimes, it is very unpredictable. i saw that. sometimes, it is hurt. it is short-term hurt...inside...i could not describe it out how was it. but whatever you think is good and i think that's nothing wrong, you just do it as long as you don't get yourself injured. in fact, if that happened, i 'll be the nurse for you. i 'll always be with you no matter what is going on..you still have my shoulder to cry on..i 'll always available for you.. because i considered you as a part of me.

super long diary i think...haha

As a human, we have the feeling -- sometimes we can feel the words. especially the weasel words in the advertisement. i considered myself as person whom would probably lured the beauty of words--yes, that's it. Mc Donald has come oout with the new recipe of burger--GCB (great chicken burger). wow! it looks nice as the photo focuses on the virtually looked delicious grilled chicken. yea, i m gonna to try once. double GCB is not suitable for me as i don't need so much calories, i took normal GCB. at first, i think there was a nice try for that. yet, it disappointed me. its taste just normal, or maybe i m too conscious of the taste itself. but basically still okay, at least i had tried once.

13th --the number which people said it bring unfortunate. i don't realize that after someone told me that on the particular day of August. just before i was told. i witnessed 2 accident on that day morning. when i flashed back, is that true? is that the number bring unlucky? i think and think. maybe it is true because in this world we have a lot of unknown, even miracle can happen. but when the case is being investigated deeper, you'll find that the actual truth behind an accident is the lackadaisical drivers themselves. Put other life in jeopardy. Speed kills!!

sometimes people suffer from what they have done before. for student, they might fail their exam or perform badly in fact that they did not put enough of effort to study. they get screwed in the end. that's why i was screwed. my first math test would be the worst. when something is more and very important indeed come to you, you would actually get yourself deal with it seriously and forget something which is important too. in fact, you pretend yourself to forget--sleeping..^^,,assignment is very important, especially for the first time book review. i had been gone through many days of hardship but more significant is the last two days i did--friday and saturday night. i felt very *high* when i force myself to stay still to do book review until almost 4 am. that was great experience of suffer, did with the determination and willpower of not falling asleep. i made it. there was a reward i set for myself if i met the target and i have achieved it.

reward--i travel myself alone again to Sunway Pyramid. actually i wanted to invite a girl from Austin class to go with me. well, i knew that she might be not around that day. so, i just straight went to sunway. i had my lunch there and have a window shopping tour there as i know i don't have the much extra expenses to spend on and better do with other things. Sushi King was my choice. enjoyed the japanese cuisine.
NICE...

bought a chinese book as well

bought some food for my backup meal...
and finally my friend came back with the upgraded modem--4G modem for p1wimax..but the line still sucks!!

there was a different me today. As i joined the ATUSA junior election, a candidate of running for vice treasurer. i gave my speech in such a dedicated ways (i assume that..:)) i have the confidence enough to answer all question propose to us, the candidate. well i saw miss N was supporting me. quite happy for that and thanks for her support. ^^..as well as my friends too ...thanks a lot for their votes.. i m touched about that because they had stayed back in school for 3 hours to vote for me...thanks a lot everyone..
and for the same thing i have to stay back for the election part 2.
My friend, yoon chye, i hopes he would successfully elected as vice president of ATUSA...
and my Austin friends + former high school classmate, lee sin...i wish she can defeat her rival to become vice secretary... i, definitely give my fully support for her...give her soul of strength indeed...lee sin jiayou ba!


what are you gonna to do right next? do it wisely...

bucket list of life

Life is just a process. a process that curbed by us. why we leave it blank? why don't we just simply add in some colors and make it more charming? have a bucket list of life on what we gonna to do to make the dream real. find your joy in the life. find it before it is too late. enjoy the way you are. enjoy every single scenery every show in life.
life is unpredictable.
a mood to attend class in the morning was ruined by the broken down of air-cond. damn it! class was so hot, even in the morning. can't concentrate at most of the time. i looked like went through a desert. my sweat gland opened to perspire, cooling down me. i quite annoyed but i didn't show it out. it's so unpredictable. the air-cond still can function yesterday. but who know it can't today?
unpredictably, adfp cafe is closed today. who know it will closed?

the things i could say is the weather is fucking hot now!!! sitting in the bus wasn't nice. the air-cond isn't powerful enough. the entire space inside the bus was a horrible hot oven which could bake a cake even.

tomorrow will be the math test for first time. i wonder how it would be. perhaps it will be tough screwed, or just an easy deal. tomorrow i' ll be a bit lonely as my friends will go back to home. i' m thinking what m i going to deal with my great dinner tomorrow night. tomorrow is almost at the end of week 5 since we came to intec, tomorrow, tomorrow and tomorrow...i ought to hand in my book review. *sigh*..haven't complete even one question. i m so sick. i also don't know the reason that i always keep on mentioning the book review here and do nothing in the end. okay! fine. let's do it. (muttering to myself).

i haven't seen you today.....quite miss you....
virtually seen you via calling yesterday...

speaker's day..

today's wednesday. there were speech given by a few speakers at speaker corner adfp. my class representative, darann was one of them stand on the stage. i stood at a place where i could the perfect view of that. a huge support and applause given to my class rep!! his talk was quite interesting (though i had listened to it before). but i never bored of listening to that 2nd time.
we could see that darann is quite smart giving the talk. well i want to be one too.



instead of having our ordinary lunch at adfp cafe, i went to mc D to have a deluxe meal. wow! i get a great chicken burger --GCB for myself. i can't say much about the taste. because for me, it is quite normal. yet, its taste is different from another. i have spent rm12.50 for the meal!! and yet it didn't very nice. the thing that caught my attention was i saw three malays went to the counter to have their sundae. (muslim ppl start puasa now) i think i have a cultural shock before i fly to usa. there is a mutation of culture happened here and i think it is not supposed to happen here in the religion perspective. but for human beings needs i think it is reasonable.
i spent few hours over there, read again my novel , refilled my coke for twice. i think mc D is affordable meal for us student. but i m not given benefit for promoting it. don't get me wrong. oh well, over there got air-cond, music, smell of french fries of course which luring my desire sometimes, but i have to budget!
things get worse when i realised today is almost the weekend and i haven't begin my book review. OMG! damn lazy to start. *sigh* and now throw me into hot soup. anxiety. worried. what could i do? just start. bye. see u next time. (i mean i wanna off my pc and sleep). HAHAHA!!!

pink.

today i was so pinky as i wore the adfp pink t-shirt to school. but i have nothing much to talk about pink, but i looked nice with pinky, sometimes. Miss N was ill last week and i was happy that she came back today to our class. She's in pink. I mean healthy. She wore pink attire too. ^^.

The lesson went on and I m a little sleepy, though i forced myself don't to.
here's come the tongue twister i had learnt:
1) red lorry, yellow lorry, red lorry, yellow lorry.
2) a big black bug bits a big black bear, makes the big black bear bleed blood.
Thing is simple but it twisted my tongue so tough. yet i like it.

SAT=sad, that was my previous concept about the test. My teacher always say that SAT is very simple, no need worried too much, the answers are just on the surface, no need to think it deeply, it's depend on how well you could guess the answers correctly...etc. I was very doubtful when i heard that at first. Yet, i think about it for few moment and i found that it's quite reasonable. For that reasons, i have not studied much on SAT either vocab or so on. But i hope i won't be fooled in the end. Thus, i m not too worried and depressed when i come to the SAT test. On the same time, i m anxious too. Quite confusing it seemed.

today 2 seniors were coming to my class. they were promoting and publish the ATUSA JUNIOR ELECTION. they kept persuading us to join. i have joined that. i had sent all my particular info required to the president; however, he said never received. I m quite disappointed. i heard my friend said there was a lot of people going to join this election now. And now my probability to be elected was very little, i does not put much hope on that. depends. if i have succeed then it must be luck helping me. I have to do campaign this week if my name appears in the candidates' name list. Campaign!!! i never did a campaign before. i m not familiar with that. perhaps my friends could help me. hope so.

simple folder...

As the time keep passing day by day, I m quite worried about my homework now. The homework given by teacher supposed to be finished up in the weekend and i procrastinated them. *sigh* I have learnt that procrastination is the thief of time such a long time ago. But i still never awake from the bad habit. Perhaps some days i would realize that not too late in case. Well, today's TOEFL class was very nice. Teacher want us to do a speaking test which using our laptops. Yet, i had not bring to school for today's test, though i knew it. She allowed us to find a place in school to do the test and we were allowed to follow a friend who has laptop, and could share using that. I did. However, the thing was that we both never do in school, instead we get confirmation from teacher that we did not need to go back to the lab even after we were done. Gosh! Nice chance for us to get back to hostel. We both quickly and happily rush to the bus and on the way back home. Of course, i had done the test just right now and gonna hand in tomorrow. i could actually take more time to deal with the test, but i didn't. I want to be truthful to myself. There would be a real test onwards but not now. I wanna test my ability to answer the speaking test, whether could cope with it or not.
There is a paragraph writing assignment and 10% would be given that particular work. When i see the deadline is about 3 days from now, i get lazy of doing the stuff already. again PROCRASTINATE. okay! I would be reminded to do it later TODAY!!!..i hope so.
And i had cleaned up my SAT stuff yesterday. there are quite a lot of handouts and paper tests. I had gathered them up and punched them and put them in a folder. A simple, non-special, just simple Folder which is quite meaningful for me. It is creating a pathway for me to recall the memory I have till now with someone who means to me very much. The way we talk, the way we smile, the way we happy about, the way we get close, the way we sitting side by side, the way i take care of you, the ways we have gone through our final learning life in secondary education. I'm sentimental indeed. I could not easily forget the that memory of that peculiar periods. It MEANS to me and as if it is one part of my life now and FOREVER. I would probably recall the scenes almost every night before i get into dream. I used to it and caused me so lonely, NOW! i used to feel like very down when the days i got the feeling someone don't bother much about me any more. i used to think pessimistic. i used to think the other way round. I did feel like wanna cry out a few times, but i didn't. it's so complicated sometimes as i could read the mind of someone thinking. i dare not to take initial step forward as i had learnt a lesson before that. *sigh*. I' m so useless. I' m so coward that sometimes i used to think. Even sometimes i wish to delete these part of memory in my life, but i didn't. why? Because I would always care about someone. someone who make my heart pound. someone who i would like to take care instead of others. I have considered it as my chores of my life. Miracle of love is never ending of take care. i care, i care everything of someone, i care and i don't want to disturb the coherence of someone life. Perhaps i would be forgotten.

life is just like a brief candle. why must bother too much? Happy always and we could feel contented. health is wealth. be healthy.


you are my health.....

wonder...ful "Sat"

wonderful saturday...
went to Sunway Pyramid in the early morning with shan wei, yi cai and few of my friends...
reached city of sunway around 7 a.m...no busy traffic...fresh air over there...we searched quite a long time around there and finally found one food court..quite nice for us as we could smell the chinese food after had been shah alam about a month...we took our great time there...not rushing to finish breakfast....for at least 2 hours there...we were walking to Sunway Pyramid after that...and first thing first, we went for a visiting at toilet in sunway pyramid...we had peas there and took some time make-up...not me of course...yes my friend did..waiting quite patiently...later we went for movie at 11 a.m. THE LAST AIR-BENDER, we had watched it...quite nice quite dramatic...yet the ending was not so good...yea...we watched it in 3D...but i couldn't get the effect very well...damn hungry after watching movie...we had our great meals in Sakae Sushi outlet....we could see there were quite crowded...finally we had been seated..Teriyaki Chicken Ramen!!..looking good...quite scrumptious...great!...we had other special japanese cuisine too..

instead of doing nothing, we loitering around...there was a dancing competition and i had watching a great live dancing show...the performances were very good...i was quite amused by them...the champion got the ten thousands ringgit CASH!!! wow...great deal...their hard work paid...

of course, i was not feeling well with my legs as i standing there quite a long time during the show...i sat at the bench with yi cai in front of baskin robbins...the tasty ice-cream was luring us...we had to budget...rejected that...

after a quite tiring day at sunway pyramid, we took bus back, waited there before that...first bus came and we seemed couldn't get seat and i quit queuing with yi cai, while the other get in the bus...suffered standing along the route...quite pity...i took the next bus yi cai and we had a little doze on the way...

a wonderful weekend but we have to deal with stress again after few days...*sigh*

my room key!!!

yeah!! come to the weekend finally....i was so excited that today i could come back early to hostel. After buying the sticker we needed for our electrical appliances, i quickly rushed to the cafe to have my lunch there. i ate as fast as possible because i don't want to miss the bus back to hostel, otherwise we gonna take bus after 3 p.m. As i always have a big appetite, i managed to finish it very fast that less in 10 min. finally, i got in the bus on time. there was very bored and i fall asleep as well. after about 10 mins, we reached our hostel. i got off the bus and have a deep breath. fresh air..i walk towards my room happily as i wish to have a little doze after bath.
when i reach in front of my room, i usually take out my key and quickly open door. However, this time i couldn't find my key. OMG!!..i shocked by then. i check through my entire bag thoroughly and took out all stuff inside to investigate whether it hidden somewhere. yet it didn't. i tried to recall. and i found everything went wrong since morning. i had forgotten to take my key. *sigh*...quickly, i called my friend and luckily they were on the way back..phew! terrible, unfortunate incident...

as usual, evening of the end the weekdays, we are going to have a great dinner at other else place. i' m looking myself bad with the quite messy hair and i went for a hair-cut..i told the barber to cut it nicely...and i think he managed to to get what i meant...RM 15 for just a few cutting on my hair...i think that is quite reasonable HERE...

And i found one thing strange today...i could smell the availability of chinese in shah alam...i could see the chinese running business at ole-ole ...the chines barbers are serving many customers...and i could even listen to chinese songs at giant supermarket...there might be great for it...

but sadly i said, i found my laptop keep *emo* now as the integrated webcam CAN'T function!!!!
damn...i try to figure it out the problem...but i think i would...i just give up and i would bring it to technician to configure the trouble....haiz...

a good start might be messed up badly..

night diary....

undeniable fact. it's time fly. a week has gone, another week is coming. still have a week for me to finish up my book review. yet, i haven't finish my reading my novel i picked, The Opposite House. i have to rush through the half of the book in 2 days. perhaps i could do it. however, the words line per line always keep on hypnotize me. i quite sleepy by then. *sigh*...what can i do? just sleep la...
next week will be a math test...actually it had been postponed to the date...but then next week we are not going to deal with the SAT practice test...hurray!!...this saturday would be an activities in our hostel...attendance is compulsory...however, maybe i would make it the other way round...haha..of course, i m not make a lonely decision...so i have already planned with my friends...hope it works...
some of them would attend a US university application workshop...i' m not going for that..and my friends too....because we have sent our room representative for that peculiar workshop...just joke...
somehow, these 2 days, there were talks and introductory speech from the professor of US universities, which are Steven Institute of technology and LeHigh University...quite attract to those universities as it would not required very high qualification but they are top universities among others in US...sick pipe, dude!!..as my level are not so qualifying for those very top school of enginnering like MIT, but i would think about that and work hard for it...perhaps i would succeed..

it is better to be underrated than overrated...

a LITTLE....BIT..

just a little bit....a little bit more...a little bit more!!!!..we could win The Star Thumbnails for RM 50!!. a little bit more we can have KFC for our dinner..it's just a little bit more..however, we just lost a little bit of vote for it...our happy bug... the turbo-charged bike which seem quite common beat us down...lousy...*sigh*...
this picture was taken when i was playing basketball at cendana court...my friend from Boston class whom currently my roommate too, had snapped this photo...posted it in The Star Thumbnails...yet luck didn't stand on our side...
BUT, luck in another way, let us to witness this kind of a little bit strange bug...smiling-faced bug just wanna get us out of gloominess...perhaps it would be..^^..

sometimes, just a little bit then it changed our lives...like our SAT test...when we just a little bit not sure about the meaning of words, we might probably get that question wrong...
or we just have a little bit of idea to be written in our essay, then we get "gg" for it..means gone...
just a little bit mistakes we made, a big thing might changed....
sometimes when a couple just having a little problem among them, they may get split up in the end...that's sad case...
or just be a little bit lazy to study, you might not get a good result in exam, even you might have a tendancy to fail...
it just a little bit...who know...God know...

sometimes i am just a little bit not sure what "one" are thinking about...perhaps it might be the unknown....

this week....

this week...what am i going to say about this week?
ya...the first thing is about the P1WIMAX...damn sucks la...
server down yesterday night...wtf...i couldn't finish my group presentation as i need some info from website...haiz...what going to do? FB cannot...msn cannot...blogging cannot...gaming CANNOT!!! shit la...at least one thing can which is reading..==...lame..
just got the signal of it right now...but have to setup such thing to ensure our smoothness of surfing...quite lame...have to put all stuff to get the height...can't be too high or low...yet ok la...at least could finish my presentation..

this week is quite hectic... all stuff...important thing just come in the blink of eyes...
journal, book review, presentation, talent-show, extra classes...etc.....all like pushing you to a corner that you couldn't move....
i have promise myself to finish my novel by this week...perhaps it would be...luckily this week math test is postponed...
this few day i seem like evolving into different character....from DOTA boy to Superman Junior to superstar...all happened quite funny and amusing for me when i flashed back...^^...

people are different in many ways...some may adapt very fast to one place...but some not...maybe it's just the beginning for me...i have to become active and HARDWORKING...joined all the activities...yet i just absent for the meeting at cendana for briefing just right now...haha..

the key of password, one is you and another is me....

simply alone....not bad

simply cloudy day...though not going to rain...but i scared of raining...yet i do hate the glare of sun too...
i went dinner myself alone...at the stall where people called mc Don...
we are familiar with Mc Donald which some would call it Mc Don...at first i think it was....but it wasn't...
the stalk are managed by most indonesian and sold the food made by them...that's why people called Mc Don which is made in indonesia...quite funny...but not all...HAHA...

having dinner alone not bad...i used to it when i was form 1...when the first day in secondary school..ya i could remember that..i used to walk to bus station alone...carry along the heavy stuff...take public bus go back to home...those were where i gained experience... the hardship of student...i used to drive alone everyday to school and back...etc...

having dinner alone let me flash back all these thing....and i wondered someday i would be alone when no one accompany you...but i won't afraid of it...yet i like it this way sometimes...

now onwards...i must be more independent...enjoy the loneliness sometimes...no influence by other factors...peer pressure to be specific...must leading the way when the right time is coming for me...yeah!! must put a target for myself...yet won't force myself....

having dinner alone let me learn more more experience...stand on my own feet..isn't nice?..
don't follow others step to move sometime...i admit that i m too dependent on others...very very dependent...i should not follow them onwards...promise myself...i don't want to be liar to myself...

should be proactive next time...i promise myself...