nth.but.hk.drama

everyday since i woke up
it is already noon....12p.m
left 12 more hours to be spent each day...
there isn't much time
yet it is much when you're toooo free...freaking free..
try to find something to do
but haven't ...hahaXD
when you are too free you start to think something
and start dreaming again and fall asleep....

one way to stay awake like no other ways
is
watching movies....:)

10++ dayss..

hey hey~~
time to go back lo..XD
study =.=
but not yet
still have....erm....10+ days
haha..
about 2 months holidays..what have i been doing??
i doubted...eat, sleep, play, hang out....didnt touch the book even..
i have been wasting...no it's spending my pleasant golden time at home, though i didn't have much fun at home...haha...
well, i guess i have enough time to relax during the holidays and i hope there will be much more open doors waiting for me next year.XD
i am wondering how am i going to survive in next semester as in my class as i know there isn't much girls. i mean Chinese girls. so...i dunno. haha..it isn't important..i guess. but at least i can concentrate on study (that's the way to comfort...)shhh!!><
laziness is always my greatest "strength" ...but i wish it will be my next "weakness" xD


10 more days to go
the arrival of 2011

worrying episode

yeah! holidays...everyone must enjoy...

i should enjoy my days during this holidays. but the thing is
i am worried about my final exam...*sigh*..
i just did my best. but the best that i have done, i could not have my fully confidence in it.
it is totally different between a gap...FAIL or PASS...i m anxious of it...
that's the thing that haunted me since last week i have been back in home.
day by day, i can't get rid of it, always bear that in mind..that's the problem..whenever wherever i have been...whatever i did...i just be remind of that...
i had failed once...
i admit that i scared...i scared i will fail...i won't scared of failure...yet, i scared of disappointing my family...i was not playful to handle the exam or even the test..i have been taken it seriously every time...BUT my result wasn't satisfying me, especially my reading subject...i couldn't point the finger to the lecturer that didn't teach well, somehow maybe is just my own problem...my understanding to text is not good enough...i admit...
my reading test result was so suck. though i wasn't fail, i got the bad result..
i really DON'T LIKE people who got that higher marks than mine and still complaining their marks...i don't like to complain much...i just wanna speak out, that's make me better...
i think i shall not worried too much...but i can't...==...
i have my great wishes that i won't fail this final exam...hopefully...bless...

shamed of my failure....

home episode...

yeah!!!!
home really sweet...
i could feel my taste bud tasting the sweet feeling of my home..^^
i like this.
after had my last paper, i rushed out from the exam hall 30 mins earlier, to breathe in the fresh air and exhale my long lasting tension of answering the tests all the way..phew!..i made it.. yahoo..^^
went sunway and hadd a ridiculous? no, it is amazing? or it is jusst really awesome!!! sarcastic...we spent quite a lot...on food...sushi king....follow by lovely baskin robbin:)...and the kindori....ate twice ice-cream...wow!! that was really nice...tasted different style of ice-cream was satisfying me...^^...
packing was the last thing i did in cendana....i was fast on doing that...put like dumping everything inside the bags and luggage...i was quite excited as i was going home..yet i felt a bit sad that i have to leave that cannot meet my friend...

feeling quite sad at the same time, cant accompany the lovely one till the going home....miss a lot of time being there....hope the lovely one won't feel lonely...take care ya thee, lovely one...wish to see you soon....^^

four three two one...yeah go home..
theology the first test that not really stunned me, but i got stunned when i saw ALM student went out from the hall one by one..only after about 30 mins they had finished answering the test! awesome! i just started answering my essay question. what is big bang theory? the particle boomed and moving apart..in short.. maybe i should compare them to the big bang..moving apart from us from the hall...time goes by, more and more people went out. i went out when there was only 10 minutes left which is very contra to the alm student.
we also apply steady state theory too. we straight away went to mcd to have a great lunch. called the bus driver to stop at mcd s3 is like so hard. the man was not really kind enough but at least he stop for us at quite far from mcd. we somemore gaming after that--everyone ready? DoTA!
from the second test until now and the tomorrow test, i just wish one thing, one thing that could not be changed in mind--it is not that hard, not that easy...i don't want to fail!

people will sad when they being hated...and they dont know why other hated them.
but for the lovely one, people wont hated u , not even once. i promise. people happy when u happy...people sad when u sadTT.....(assuming i m the people)...

am i thinking too much? is that me? well. be myself. be yourself. i love u because of you, your nature.....

last....

yesterday was a quite nervous day..as the day when sat scores were announced..since i went back so early from school, i had been clicking on the college board website for a few times..it kept saying available soon..=.=..there was 4 o'clock in the evening..here come everyone busy checking their scores..i rushed from bed and checked. yeah, i made it! though it was not very high in my reading section, but i am happy enough as i have passed the minimum scores by JPA..i am proud of my essay score as i get very high. overall i am quite satisfied with it. i am proud of my room too 1212..^^..two ppl are getting 2k+ who qualified to apply ivy league. yet, there is a contradiction happens. some of colleague they can't believe the marks they got and quite sad.. i pity them, really. i could see them working damn hard before the real tests, and even they can score very high in practice tests and consider the top scorer, i think. when they revealed their real scores, the atmosphere seemed very gloomy. i can't say anything...maybe the marking went wrong?..or fate?..or luck?...they are sad and down. out of the expectation is very disappointing.. failure could bring one into deep grief instantly. but i believe that they could get it one day...
real hero always remain steady. of course, i am not the hero. i mean my friend who got very high mark, just stay cool. i like that. if he paid his hard work a bit more, i think he could apply for ivy league. just a little bit more..

today is the last day for this fall semester..it happened so fast...4 month have gone, just a blink of eye. everything passed too soon...i can't even totally get along with all my classmates. this is the time i get known of them a little bit and want to know more, but never have chance as next semester we will separate according to our majors.
i am sitting at my seat for 4 months, but i could feel like just happens few weeks, perhaps. what i have learned in this semester? i wonder. not the matter of i didn't learn anything, i just can't say it, too much!! there are a lot of fun and ups and downs have been gone through...perhaps our friendship could still last long....

too soon. sooner later, it will be the final exam... that is tomorrow!...
same thing happens again in mine. i wish i will get everything pass the cut off point hopefully...may the wishes come true.........

last week....

time really fly...away...everything has been done, nice one. all the assignments and presentation have been rolled over between these few weeks. today is the last presentation in this semester--campaign. well, i do feel good about my work as well as mt teammate. all of us have done a good job actually. this campaign is the least meeting we ever have which only about 15 minutes!! of discussion. yet we did quite good. i am very satisfied of my group members works as they had paid off their hard work in doing all sort of fliers, brochure, poster and t-shirt. our campaign "say NO! to plastic" has been launched smoothly...yea...throughout this semester of all kind of group work. i found my group is the good one which very cooperative between each other. i like my group^^ though sometimes there was some contradiction happened, but still okay...
have been watching other group of their presentation on their campaign, i found that there are many things of our human deeds are wrong. there are a lot of things that i don't even realize before these campaigns. like Mc Donald's fast food, we really didn't know about the truth behind the "smile:)"...
well today is the last important day for my class before the FINAL EXAM..of course, i have to free myself a while from the huge burden that i have. for sure that i will have begun my hard work by then. so........what's now.....rest first! yeah!^^

there is something behind everything
which
hidden.....
i don't know....

nice meeting...

what a good day?
well met some friend that i come far far away from ktt sepang, in Malaysia of course. but he did not meet with even once here around KL i mean. after about 45 mins of driving in a rented car, he arrived at sunway safely. the first time he went sunway pyramid today. at that moment i just think of how many times i have been going to sunway. haha. i was just wondering if i could be the tour guider for him. sure, i scared of he would lost in such huge shopping. sunway is such a big and complex terrain? it is just a small dot in big big world. one utama is more challenging, i guess.
we have a quite good lunch there in a gasoline station--Gasoline cafe. yet i cant smell gasoline! the food is just nothing special about. but the atmosphere is quite comfortable with low lightning and japanese style seating. quite lot conversation there.
eating is just a usual but special talent that we have, perhaps. we went to have s great yummy desert--snowflakes, a kind of taiwanese food. in such a hot day, eating a big bowl of icy snowflakes wow, nice! it seems like a reunion, perhaps as we sat around the tables and had been talking a lot!! whatever topics just being boomed..
ya that was a great little moment i having there with the lovely one. since long time ago, i have never been so close to her, the lovely one. sitting beside the lovely one, i just feel a great warmth inside me. the feel could not be able to describe. it is just simply nice. the time is great with the one with the sweetie snowflakes as complement....the environment was just perfect. i am happy.^^ this is the wholesome short period i having today. grateful. thanks for being you=D.valued every moment.... :)



week 16!!!! the last end.....

after a big endurance~~

the fifth day had been gone through with a lot of hardship-tiresome, exhaustive, sleepiness...
what i have been going through these weekdays?
well, everything happened so fast like lightning. as the first day, i was so enthusiastic on my ethic presentation and prepared it for some moment. but, thing ended up with doing it next week. ==..so first mission incomplete.
i was like preparing everything in the good condition for my book review 2 on Tuesday. the same thing was happened again. there were only 6 people did their presentation, and i was not given a chance to do because of my informal attire. formal attire is needed for presentation that is what i actually know, but i never think that lecturer is so counting on it. so, second mission was incomplete too..
living in this democracy world we should followed the majority decision. that's why the LAST TOEFL class was being postponed again..==well. wednesday should be considered as the most busiest, most arduous day that i had this week. having the 2 listening test in 2 hours, listening to the boring tape that had been played for many times, answered the questions not very well. i am quite scared of this oral comm test, i might have a thought of failing the test, i mean get damn low marks. phew! the bored 2-hours had just gone and the another round still awaiting in front--precalculus test!! however, this time, the test was quite damn easy i think but i still wondered about the possibility of failure. mission 3 complete!!
here come the fifth which was already yesterday by now. finally it was my turn to present my book review. i was quite nervous on presenting but i think i had done my best... a grammar quiz which is just a quiz but actually a test to test our ability on that particular grammar. grammar is always be my great weakness. i absolutely can't ensure anything from this test as well. so mission complete but....

sometimes having a man little party is just nice. eating junk food, snacks and keep drinking the liquid carbon dioxide. a lot of laughter can be heard by then, of course that was something craps...haha..well, it really strengthen our friendship. i say this seem a bit old-fashioned but we may know each other better in this way. the food was nice and the place was quite nice as well with no rain at all and stars and moon as well..

the last week of the semester smells so near now....hehe

week 15 already!!!!

everything seem doesn't stick on my plan today.
as i wake up at 10 am, i plan to do and complete my book review 2 slides as well as cause and effect essay. but now, i just did my slides in half way and didn't start my essay writing yet. so frustrating now. don't know how to deal the pressure later. this week may be considered as the busiest week also. all the challenging stuffs come to the peak this week!!! i haven't get myself prepare for the climax yet. damn it! i am just like too lazy to start on my work sometimes as today. and i may regret later soon==..sad case. what the pre-calculus test!! is coming soon and it's gonna to screw me up. the round isn't end so fast after the test. there is another grammar quiz on Friday!!! that's most probably will bounce me down to the hell!!! wth!!
preparing too many presentations today. first book review, now ethics--life after death. there is high possibilities our group which last will present tomorrow. at this seconds, i just hope that everything will be smooth enough. hope that i can speak out loud and fluently.
after a week, i didn't get use and touch the SAT lexicon, i have been decreased in ability to pop out some bombastic words. it seems useless after the test. i mean i can't use them a lot in my writing. maybe it's the matter that i don't familiar with all those great vocabularies.
there is 11 hours left for my ethics presentation, maybe..
there is one day left for my book review 2 presentation, possible is my turn..
there is two days left for the math precalculus test 3 and oral comm listening test, that's for sure....i ''ll die!!
there is three days left to complete my cause and effect essay, yea true...
there is four days left for the grammar quiz, *sigh*
campaign some more!! last week
everything happen too fast, too furious..this is what person without preparation will say. i definitely is the one. *sigh*
now i wish i could cope with them in peace.........nothing unfortunate happens......or else, i am going to be killed.
now i also realize that time truly flying incessantly.in the blink of an eye.
week 15 now!!! next week is the last round we gonna to fight for this semester...final push..
2months of holidays is coming near to us, i could feel the movement of it. yeah! but i gonna said "haiz" now......

hot!!!!

oh! damn it. pre-calculus is so confusing...i m so freaking annoyed. i could not really understand about what the teacher taught us. i could not get what it mean! so f*** off! it is getting more arduous now. i cant twist my brain to think about the solution, but my friend did that! trying hard to twist my brain. it is tough, it is challenging, it is exhausting.....

well, friday was not an easy day. there was a reading quiz. i had been screwed by the reading quiz last time. i have the phobia to this type of quiz by then. i was like "OMG!" before i took the quiz. i was so scared. i cant prepare anything instead reading some material, perhaps would help. i was afraid of i would be screwed up again....==.yet, for me, reading is depending on my understanding on 1 passage. if lucky, i could get what it mean, if not, then gone. everything should based on luck also, but sometimes don't.
waiting "patiently" for 3 hours in library, finally the quiz began. i should or should not thank to luck? there are many questions that i knew how to do it, yeah! but same time, some ques really drilled me to hell, i just can't ensure that my choice of answer is correct or not...*sigh* i took my time read thoroughly the passage and try very hard to fully understand it. i did my best, hope that it won't disappoint me again.
whatever, it's over. should be happy. that's right. we went SACC had our great dinner at Nandos. the chicken taste nice with extra hot peri-peri sauce with dual sidelines as well. the big big chicken wing, wow!..i like the environment there. a bit dusty plus the old fashioned furniture...the low lightning intensity and the soft music are amusing... the bottomless cola is really good. i have 4 cups then . hahaha...
eating whole bar of choco in 30 mins!!! wow.. i am done...after playing few matches of dota...
woke up early morning again today...we went to One Utama again this weekend..what am i so excited to go? yes, because of my stupid keyboard i bought. lol..ya, finally i changed to USB plug-play with add on 10 bucks. i am very happy as i can type and play using keyboard to avoid hurting my lovely notebook keyboard.^^

today there is a western movie festival, i think..Latin America movies were shown. we got the free ticket. of course it is free to watch. HOWEVER, we went through each theater to decide which movie to watch. we surveyed. haha. ya finally we went to watch legend of fist--chen zhen... we watched from the middle part of it. but it was still satisfying as we have the chance to see the climax...it is so so so worthy for it as it was FREE!!!! yeah!!
we went to visit my friend hostel at bandar utama as well. she brought us to the house, walking under damn hot sunny sun...the housing area is so gorgeous. she said she and her course mate stay in a 1.3 million house!!!omg!!! they are jpa scholar also!!! i am so amazed when i saw that...the houses are so nice. there are so clean as maids will come to clean for them. the space in the house are very huge!! mammoth...there should be nice if events held on...there are NO curfew there...wow, really damn nice...

after the visit, i felt like i don't want to go back cendana anymore...everything there in bandar utama is so damn good, nice, perfect...but what to do...*sigh*
ya we should appreciate actually for what we having now. basically everything is fine too in cendana. should not complain. as others people maybe more worse indeed outside cendana...i must appreciate much...for what i get now..

cuci kereta cuci mata!! wow the event was so hot! i mean the girl!! awesome...when you have car wash by the beauty, you have a great chance to see them! i have no car...==...but i saw them. pretty mighty fine looking, fair complexion..i hope they could be my wife..haha..everyone like beauty..it's undeniable...

the weather is still damn hot...almost no rain for a week!!

black pepper ice cream!!

it is about a big change that one has stepped into 18...one should be matured and no longer bounded, i mean one can do what they want as long as it is legal. drinking hard drink, smoking, have a casual sex? i think it is possible, yet not in Malaysia as our country is conventional and conservative. i am wondering when is the teenagers in US start to have their first ever casual sex...for western people it is a lifestyle, and consider as healthy according to research.. but in Asian mindset that girl and boy could not get contact sexual intercourse unless they married. i think this will be the controversy idea for the world. what would our world be if everyone have free sex with each others?

well yesterday oct 12 was my housemate alvin birthday. we have had a blast party at pak li coffee shop. celebration with a group of girls as well. there was meng yee, chicago class rep birthday as well. that's nice. having a lot of conversation and communication with each other. eating the cheesy cake was tasty. we have a lot of fun talking craps. haha. we spend a few hours there. just before we went to celebrate. we stayed back in INtec great library. wow. the cold environment is so nice. the weather of these few days was seemed some thing went wrong. it is freaking fucking damn hot!!!!! i still could feel my skin been burned!!

today i have a big deal in Mcd..with a lot of black pepper. the black pepper spicy burger is great. and also the black pepper ice -cream!!!!!yeah.. i like challenges.....awesome.

follow my gut...quite wrong...

follow the gut...yeah today i have followed my gut and finally i should said that it fooled me a lot....shit!!

afternoon was nice not so hot, the sun pretend to be shy. quite shady but didn't rain. well, the buses should be our first choice of transport for us to go to one utama. however, it seems doesn't work well as lastly we took a taxi to there.
today my friend's friend's birthday. she is my friend also but met for just second time. i met one another new friend today also, named hui li.....
i didn't give present but i assume an ice-cream--chocotop should be a present as well...hehe...we went to dog fest just now. it was the last day. i saw many doggies, the cute one and also the strong one. they make me feel like i want to hug my 3 lovely dogs at home. yea, i miss them much. their barking was so sweet. ^^
here come the point i become a schmuck!!!*sigh*
i bought a logitech keyboard but nice keyboard what for? p/s 2 plug!! i cant use it in my laptop...that's shit!! omg!!! why am i so stupid, didn't even check it when buying!!!! why am i be fooled by that promoter!!!why am i follow my gut to believe that it is true--a usb keyboard!!!haiz...why!!???
i really learn a lesson and regret my deed. have to run to the shop again. hopefully they could exchange to me a USB keyboard ...if not, then i have to peel my pocket again....==
i am a schmuck!!!! i could blame nobody, but me....suffered the consequence.....


wish i never being fooled and a schmuck again.....
my brain have rusted already i think...
be smart to follow my gut!!!

SAT finished.....

yeah!
finally it FINISHED!!!
happy +excited
SAT is over........
we are so free, freaking free now....
walking on the journey to sunway was damn hot!
but it keep warm in heart
we walked together, and that's the reason.
though the way to sunway is quite short by driving
yet it's damn far from where we took SAT, metropolitan college....
whole gang of us walking together, though lastly we separated.
ya what's going on next.
of course we have had our great meal for lunch at pasta de gohan....japanese italianese cuisine.
it's look nice and nice environment, for me.
eating pasta was nice, but i still not very satisfied with the smell of pasta favor i ordered. not smell bad, it just like the smelling "cheap"? i guess so. the smell like something with soy sauce and pepper. very common. yet, it cure my hungriness, damn full after eating pasta with curry pilaf plus lemonade beverage.
one thing that i could not really like is the wet tissue is being charged, though we didn't use it and don't want. it's that a trick or prank? i guess so, business strategy.
let's rock party non-stop....
we bought some hard drink to celebrate of course.
tiger!!!carlsberg!!!
wow!! damn nice.
i seem "red" after drinking but not drunken as i still could dota-ing....hahaha...

the SAT day end with sleep at 3 a.m ......


the journey today still awaiting me to discover it.......

SAT eve.......

the night before SAT........
today, everything does pretty fine. we played whole noon of games. instead of study, we have fun. well, i play a game just now. dota. defense of the ancient. i will take the test to defend myself as well tomorrow. it seems very important. but, the environment now does sound very tension. by the way, i am quite anxious about it. i am afraid of digression of topic in my essay writing, something go wrong. i damn scared. that's why i am always so optimistic to alleviate the burden on me. damn! i played Dota, it's no wonder why. ya i didn't study tonight. and i am going to sleep later soon.

i bless you all the time. no matter how, i give you all my supportive strength and mentally energy. believe yourself , you could do it, because i believe too.


be confident....do the best...

studying SAT!

last two days before the real SAT test will be coming soon. i have wasted my this noon for recording my part of radio drama which i need to sing 3 songs. i record and record again. replicate this recordings is too arduous for me as i am actually not very proficient in my singing. but, since my group members had requested me and it ought to be added into it, i have no other better choice since then. singing 3 song with the rhythm was not spartan. i have spent my time extravagantly because i planned to record all that in an hour at first. yet it takes me few hours. it's lethargic. OMG! i am still insatiable with my sound recording. i somehow my singing is quite....ugly. i have no idea to enhance my singing at this furious moment. *sigh*.

however today i am still pleasant- with my TOEFL scores within these few months. yes, i think i have passed and will pass in real test, hopefully.

sometimes, it is sophisticated but it is reductionistic too as well. but i affirm that life is unpredictable, unknown, enigmatic, cryptic, mysterious. everything happens is pertaining to stealthy. sometimes it remains stasis and quiescent. but, at the same time, it will entity exotic sarcasm.

that's life.....

but

first thing first,




study SAT!!!!!

10 marks!!!!

finally i enjoy the fruit of our master piece of action in role play today. i could said that our group actually are quite passionate to this wrap up activity. although we have just practiced just for two times, but we did quite well. despite of our action, our story line is interesting and imposing. wow! awe-inspiring! like korean movies. haha.. i am too exaggerating on it. perhaps i am very satisfied with my score which is perfect - 10 marks!!! i was quite stunned when i first saw our group score. i can't believe it .. wow, it is actually our hard work paid off. perseverance will triumph in the end. we have been so passionate on our task and finally it is satiable. of course, we have endured quite a lot of tiresome hours on it as well as radio drama. or maybe our play make sense to our lecturer..and he likes this kind of play..perhaps..
finally i know a successful movie will bring a mammoth, enormous, gargantuan of happiness, satisfactory, victory to the all entire movie makers committee. i should give credit to my group member--alan, aimi and seha for being great actor on the play.
ya i really put my effort on the task given and have a great passion of doing it. like Donald Trump said, find your passion and love what you do. yea, i think i have found my passion perhaps and certainly i put myself into the play for real. i think that should be the answer for our group success... and of course, we should be like that all the time.

we should love what we do,
shouldn't hate it, shouldn't be undaunted, because it will definitely drag you away from the success edge.

have passion of what you do....
believe in yourself and myself


in myself i believe you....

the making of.....

after seeing some excerpt from my life right now, i have observed something and i deduce that
--making a movie is not an easy job, and the fruits of being passionate on the making of the movie are such an eminent master piece.
this notion was just blinking in my mind in a sudden. since i and we have the assignment--radio drama, which almost look alike like a movie indeed, perhaps, i have been going through almost all the way doing all this stuff. it has been practically moribund to us. that day, when i was discussing the story trend of the role play, we just figure out a lot of story we could perform. yet we need to choose the best one. it take about 2 hours in a discussion for us to make the decision. it seems ridiculous, this is not jocularity, but it's true. it seems so intricate to decide. i am wondering why. in fact, it is just a simple choice. to strengthen it more, i have a good example which came from my housemate actually. his group has done the recording of radio drama. he keeps on editing the sound all that. and he keeps up his effort for a few days. i am not sure yet, he is now still editing or not. however, something for sure is that editing the sound is a hard job. i wonder why he could put his effort fanatically simply on that assignment and perhaps he seems relish on his task. that's totally imposing. since i have my SAt test this Saturday and i don't really get a very high mark as my friends got, i have to put a bit effort on it instead of seeking the perfection on others.


people are insatiable, so do i too. i have my own dream. having a big dream is innocuous of course. THINK BIG, AND START KICK ASS IN YOUR LIFE--donald trump.

Dragon Tail....

today was amazed by the line of people. wow. i looked out at the window and the queue was amusing me. like a Dragon Tail.. as i knew that there was almost 730 am. there would the last bus before we late to class. yet, the bus still didn't come on time. the buses were late. 2 buses were reaching at cendana. i got stunned when i saw the 2 buses were taking multiple heavy loads of students. OMG! and yet there were still people couldn't to get into the buses. it was really sucks. but having friends around it does better than alone. at least you won't afraid of it, sometimes. when we got into the queue, we are actually far behind around 10+ people. it's really "awesome". we can't take the 720 bus, so we have taken 750 bus. of course, we were late. luckily, i was not screwed by lecturer who is affable.
things get worsen when i found the air-cond is NOT WORKING!!! wtf!! feel the great warm and rise in temperature in the class like an oven. shit! sweating and smelly.

the time while staying back at school, i don't like it much. it's tiresome, really. i wish i don't have to stay back anymore. practicing a role play for wrap up activity is not as an easy job as a piece of cake! learning and practicing the action of every part of the scenes, it is actually hard. sometimes, girl and boy will sheepish when they have some interaction in the play. it is really hard to get rid of that.

one thing i am sure that i am addicted to dota already. everyday play dota. even sometimes, my classmates will ask me, "are you playing dota after class?"omg! i seem infamous with that.


on the way improving my lexicon.....wishing i will not be pawned this Saturday.....

again 330 a.m, i had played dota again. well, it is quite fun. a good night sleep again. yet i just could sleep till 10 am. yea i have to wake up early to continue all my all sort my big challenging stuff..
i have started with my comparison essay first. wow. take half day to fiinish. i wonder if i don't ever have this much of ample time to finish.

i think people are addicting to dota games again...yes it is undeniable...we continued playing dota again at noon..we are being sarcastic for this whole day and day before, and the day before yesterday,.........we are epic?

a book which is simply a simple stuff can actually bring a lot of complex laughter.hahahahahahaha.....laughter? ya, we are crazy.....in a sudden 1212 house is full of the laughing aura, the warmth of friendship, the fulfilling jokes...yea, that's funny, sense of humor..^^ i guess so...

maple story..a great online game which drag whole form of student keep playing it last few years..and i have downloaded it today, it really takes me approximately 7 hours!!! i have recalled back some nice memory of the game while i simply played a while just now. 1.9 gb!! it really...eat the space of our p1...

week 13 is coming tomorrow...it absolutely fast like lightning...i am chasing it....

next week...SAT!!

since i realized that today is the weekend of week 12, there isn't a long way to be gone through to the final.
since i realized that today is the weekend of week 12, there are myriad, tonnes of works i haven't even touch on it, and i am going to be exhausted. *sigh* suffer from procrastinate?
i don't think so, but yes. essay, TOEFL test, SAT test, radio drama, role play......==
next week will be very tough challenging vigorous week days ever, i think so.

meanwhile, we still dota-ing for approximately 6 hours, non-stop!!!
i can't imagine i can withstand so tremendously for such a long time without rest!! it might be the great adrenaline pushing me upright...
i am amazed of myself, pretty awe-inspiring...of playing game...however, it does not wark on study. i will wilt if i study like that...==
330a.m i slept....

afternoon we went McDonald at S3. went to "botanical garden"??^^ perhaps, it looks so..in the centre of roundabout, there is a really nice shady and good environment. something cool air and fresh as well. good panoramic view. yea we have snapped some photos there. continued our journey going back home.

Domino Pizzas party night!!!wow..cool 6 larges 2 regular, total 60 pieces. finished by 10 hungry gentlemen..in 15 mins..haha...
there was great just now. having dinner together with friends, talking craps and keep eating and keep craping...

TOEFL test !! i have finished...within.....in very fast rate..1 hour? haha...

finally i have finished reading "think BIG".^^
started book review? i think i am ready for that...but....
yes, MUST think BIG
and kick ass....said Donald Trum


next week SAT!!!

all stuff are so cramping me today. shit! just enjoy the dreadful days onward.
found one video i like, recall my memory back to the first hi-fi + vcd player that my home ever had.enjoy the video..^^
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4BMFXmiB-Hk&feature=related

"开田过港爬山岭"

SAT, bye...

yeah! finally it came to the end. SAT test is finished. throughout every wednesday in the 6 weeks of being passionate on doing the test, the old library is always filled with the extreme coldness like antarctica, the sadness, the unsatisfactory. in contrast, there will be some happiness exist as complement. today, the last test and the last scores i got, i am satisfied with that. SAT test seems not much important for me i think as i want fly in 2 years but not one. i live happily now.^^ not stress of the score like my friends did. there hall would be boisterous as a market? yea, should be. all people are talking and discussing SAt scores. what question right, what question get wrong, who is the highest marks all sort of that. that's why i don't like to be there.

well, instead of studying, we did played dota. and i found something which is strange? or could be said like you not really think of. i just realised my friend is studying dota!! wow! awesome. he does not seem such the person would be very passionate on game at this moment. be reminded next weekend will be the real SAT test. i really open my big eyes. i does not study dota even. not saying i am pro instead of saying me noob..ok then. dota is good for health actually...

so, i'm gonna to say "SAT, bye bye..^^"

the last SAt practice test eve..

it's pretty nice today. i could sleep till 8am. wow! feel fresh than ever.
i hope i could have this everyday. but for today because miss N absent for some reasons and i could have this kind of luck just for once, i think.
recover pretty much more than yesterday. yet, i still didn't have my appetite to eat.
i should be proud of myself today as i don't even fall asleep at ALL. gosh! even i stay back in intec great library till 6pm. donald trump said when somebody screws you, screw them back in spades. i like this quote and i should learn to use that.. haha..i mean my exam. screw back my exam...
my energy still haven't ran out. i continued with 3 matches of dota. though i didn't end up with victory, but satisfactory still been gained.
tomorrow will be the last SAT practice test. i am glad but i am still a bit anxious of that.
as mr gk said he got lower marks for sat because he slept late the night before.
okay! i should listen to a smart guy, perhaps it works. ....

oh! sucks!
vomiting plus diarrhea ruined me whole night. so unlucky. i don't know what's wrong. yet, i gotta symptom after eating nasi ayam at rumah terbuka by makcik dobi. i just felt like the aura inside my stomach keep on moving and lastly force the food out of mouth.*sigh* not once but more than trice, until nothing more can come out. i lost my feeling control on my entire body. i felt weak. muscle pain. people studying until late night, but me, suffering until late night.
luckily, i recover a little bit this morning. soon i recover more. perhaps my recovery rate is fast and now i feel better. some people may believe that i have met something unfortunate. i wonder. but i think maybe is the food problem.
yesterday night was a really true nightmare came through. i thought i would die. phew...i am still here right now.
well, had a hair trimming at sunway pyramid. instead of cutting short i have thinning my hair as i want to keep it long and long.
this few weeks will be the most busy weeks i ever have. SAT test following the radio drama, book review, and final exam just in a blink of eyes. much more things haven't been settle yet.


stay confidence even something bad happens.
i believe that it is just a bump on the road. it will pass. soon. hopefully.

crazy day again...

awesome day! is that awesome?
crazy i think is more perfectly describing.
after the nightmare, i should and i did cheer up myself again.
went to one utama with the one sporting friend as me as usual^^, initially for 2 movies. but ignored one for next time, perhaps.
not just for that purpose, only. we met my friend, ex-schoolmate. ya, girls. and one her cute friend. name Li Ai.....
maybe she is quite naive or childish or extrovert, or stupid? sohai? hehe..i don't know. overall she is quite affable and charming.
watching a movie--wheat 麦田. feeling great that whole theater hall just have about 10 people like last time i watched repomen. quite cold environment but not freezing.
we hesitate which bus do we want to take. waiting at the bus stand with no roof! it was raining. well, we did take the bus safely.

wow! let's the party non stop. we went sunway pyramid too. dropping by just have had our dinner. oh yeah! we saw cut above having some event there. hair cut just for rm10!! we think about it. maybe going to cut hair tomorrow. haha.

be mentally tough and never give up...

failure..

as i said, life is so unpredictable.
and life is so fragile.
yesterday i saw my midterm test result.
it turned me down.
very very down.
i failed.
i failed of reaching even 2.75..
failure depress me.
i got very depressed of my result, inside, hardly outside could be seen.
why? why?
i began to worry, anxious of my ugly result.
getting 2 point something is actually out of my will.
i don't really think i could not pass. out of my expectation.
suddenly, i felt the gargantuan pressure pushing me, pushing me so hard, nearly suffocated.
sad. i cried inside. deeply inside. bad feeling.
i felt shame, very shameful. all of my friends have passed, some with excellence. there's nothing i can say. i was envy of their nice result.
3.8 awesome. yes, my FRIEND, lee sin, she got it. i am happy with that. yet, i felt i am so poor.
having some advices from some lecturers that we should take the result as some kind of visual effect or something. after seen, just forget, focus on final exam. i take it as a consideration.
i think, think and think.
yea. it should be that.
i should start now. not yet too late. perhaps next exam i could pull back my gpa to the cut off point.
there's the nightmare marred me for whole day.
took a deep breathe and slept.


today, i seem a little bit more recover from the shock i got. i started to read my non-fiction book.
think big by donald trump and bill zanker.
i like a quotation"every failure is a step on the way to success ".
i feel more comfort now.
i would like to put more effort on finding the solution to excel my study instead of dreaming my nightmare.

enjoy life
do what feel good

mooncake festival...

Mooncake! eating mooncake now. has a sweet feeling with the great taste of mooncake, though it merely the normal favour that i used to eat every year. yet i am pleasant with it. this once in a year festival should be celebrated with some great events, like hanging lanterns around, having barbecue, eating variety of mooncakes, drinking the mild taste of tea, have chitchat with buddies, sharing happiness, enjoying the whole night with beloved....yet i study beyond my home now and i could not make this year. feel quite sad.
just eating a few pieces of mooncakes,, i cannot really feel the mooncakes festival. i can't get into the environment like enthusiastic toward celebration. it's so sororific in cendana here. very dark seems no light, no lanterns. everything is so dull.=.= *sigh*.
watching the moon for a while. bright. round. white with some yellowish. it is a perfect night to watch the moon, not a cloudy night luckily. but what for? nobody celebrates here, it seems a bit wasted.

well, been hibernate for such a long time. SAT test today really screwed me, exhausted having done with it. what a tiresome day!...sleepy plus a bit blurrish hauted me. *sigh*

tired
exhausted
lethargic
depressed

unknown again...

UNKNOWN.
what we live for? it's unknown. i consider it in my way.
some rush with time, simply just gain themselves wealthiness.
some burn themselves like a candle.
for me, i just move step by step, i can't even truly surmise my future. though i know what am i doing right now, but it's still ambiguous and obscure. unpredictable, right? this is life....
what we have done

i have put my effort on my English, incalculably. that's no jocularity. it's true. no games within these few days. however, unpredictable life still takes place. what score am i going to get in the next test? you know? if yes, you are the GOD.
i have read a few useful handout with myriad of lexicon. i used some already. hopefully i could really enhance my language usage. having no even little nap for this evening, i read the word list thoroughly, though it seems soporific. yea, it actually. i am quite pleasant now as i was not undaunted by the feeling of somnolent just now. i am not like a paragon of course.

a good night would help me to own my SaT test a better score, perhaps....

what's the feeling of back to school again after holidays?
well, i could say that i miss my holidays so much, i love it.
as usual, gonna wake up so so so early in the morning, it's 630 am actually. but that is considered impossible for me to wake up in holidays. meanwhile, i could still feel fresh of going to school. first day what! some people look different especially hair style, some still look ordinary.
oh no! i thought i have been pawned by math test already at first. i just got 70+. i quite down for a while, but recovered soon, as i realized that i have shown some improvement. perhaps this would be the adrenaline to boost up my confidence and continue my hard work on it. yeah! i should believe i can do it, i must!!

today might be considered as a good day? lucky day? or just a boring day? or even tiresome day of listening to the lecture and felt sleepy?
sometimes it's good that we don't have to do TOEFL practice, but at the same time it was too bored of doing nothing for 1.5 hours!! lame....

tomorrow would probably a "wonderful" nightmare for me...
wakakaka.......(devil's laugh)

skul reopen...

back to Shah Alam again. the holiday is still not enough for me, and i think is for everyone, perhaps. i still wish this holiday could be extended, though i did nothing at home, but i enjoy it. everybody seem have done with their dossier ready, this actually make me feel bad. but nvm. its okay!
tomorrow should be a better day. ya, i hope so. i hope i will not that sleepy anymore. HAHA. perhaps enough sleep plus a cup of nescafe would help..
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2moroo will be best
yeah!
jiayou!!!

today...last night at home, before the hectic life start again...
what i hope now is that
i could pass my mid term test!!!
that's the one i worried till right now..
i hope my final exam would be better...
and yet still have my big assignment to carry on--radio drama...
i wonder what am i done in the holidays?
yea, enjoy myself of course without burden, though i have dossier and some preparation awaiting me, i procrastinate...that's me^^..

tomorrow would be pleasant and safe journey back to SA...

2 weeks of holidays almost come to the end...within these days, i think i have wasted a lot of golden time, though i am done a lot of activities with my precious time. went outing with family, visited auntie home, have a reunion day with best friends which we called our "family day"^^, gathered with friends, watched Resident Evil-after life, shopping, etc. i did all, and now eating mooncake..mmmm...yummy...variety of mooncakes has been bought. quite expensive but worthy..haha..

am i doing something? right now? at first i wanna do my my dossier for US uni application. yet, i got the feeling that i wont pass the cgpa 3.5! and i abandoned my working on dossier. i prefer to do next year. but i still guilty for it, for my decision. some of my friends have been done and they told me that they wanna have a try. who know they could fly in one year? and they told me to try too. but i thought it was so ridiculous for me to get that high marks, even in SAT test also and TOEFL. i know my level. i didn't have plan to fly in 1 year, although i wish to. since another friend told me that she didn't do dossier too, i just been convinced to do dossier next year. another case is my senior does his dossier this year also(his second year). i was more likely not to do anymore. until i went to school to seek for my missing past year test result, i was totally pissed off as the clerk said i have to wait until school reopen to get from teacher.*sigh* it is ought to be stopped. BUT....i still guilty now as i found my friend done. i am confused. yet, it come to end. regret can't help. however, i am still believe my RIGHT choice. perhaps i am a contented person, at least i could fly to US too after two years. all scholars can fly, but depend on timing, fast? or slow? i smile if i could pass above average, i don't mean to achieve 3.5, yet if get it, i ll be very excited. perhaps smile help me to pass. haha..

overall i am quite enjoyable within this holiday. i could eat sleep play as i want.
another one and half month of journey have to go. yet i start to think for the next holiday already. time fly. a lot of thing haven't done yet. SAT test, book review, radio drama, presentations, assignment, essays, and final exam!!!
do whatever satisfied me, that's good enough. :)

why? why all seem so troublesome huh?*sigh*
i have lost my form result, i mean school test. they might have been sent to recycle centre i think. i am not well-organized person previously and now too, i admit. i lost some of my former school test result too as i usually just simply put aside the single paper black ink printed poor result, and now i am getting trouble to find them out. *sigh*.
perhaps i have run through the school find out. hopefully, my former result data is still available in the server. if not, i wonder as if i could send in my dossier with no completed info. more trouble me is the matter to seek my former principal to get a simple but significant recommendation letter. i am just thinking that whether he recognize me or not, i am sure he really does not know me in details. so, the letter written in a *booming* way. i write, he sign? or he write and sign on his own?
i hope he will be available tomorrow for me and i could meet him. hopefully, i will not be lazy tomorrow to seek him.
dossier...oh dossier...you ruined me and ruin me now....

gathering...

11 sept, night, we have our friend gathering. what is actually stand for gathering? is that everyone must attend? perhaps, in my opinion. yet our gathering was not perfect, i didn't get the feel of *together* like last time when we were in secondary school. last night gathering was not getting into the climax of our friendship anymore. some were not there due to outing with family, some were not there because they just didn't want to been there. i didn't know why. maybe financial problem? yes, perhaps. maybe some personal problem? yes, it could be. that's why i feel like our friend gathering didn't complete, didn't unite. i appreciate those who went gathering, we have our time to share experience. but didn't have much to share. they are smart, they already know the answer. i sitting at the corner at the table. they just talked something that didn't touch on my nerve, i couldn't really get myself into the topic. i felt like distant with them. maybe i didn't really close with them once in secondary school. they are the gang which talk much about games and yet i didn't play the game. i didn't meet the point they chatted. i just could sit there and listen. yea, of course, i still have a friend to talk. shan wei who sat beside me. we share the same feeling which the gathering was perfect. the seat we have booked didn't fully occupied. though we been there very long time, but didn't talk much. what i wanted to know i knew already and in the same way they knew ours.

no wonder how yesterday's gathering be, i still not very pleasant with the feeling i got. i expected it would be more interesting instead, but i was wrong. unpredictable. many thing have changed, mutated. i didn't get the feeling that i got last year. someone just sit very far from me, far away. though i like that way, i could not get myself near to her. it's.........quite weird. maybe i am not the important for someone, even maybe i am just ordinary friend for someone, though i have been done my best ever for someone, no aware of. i was quite disappointed as if someone don't reply my text, it doesn't and i care. i am waiting for the reply and yet my phone doesn't ring. but others' phone rang. my sadness didn't flow out, but into my inner. go deep inside. i did as nothing happen. yea, nothing happened actually, i was just thinking too much.

however i still appreciate the gathering, and i think it's okay already as i won't expect too much....

i wish to enjoy my two weeks holidays. now it's already 7 days has gone. i don't start my dossier yet. i am wondering if i could do it next year if i don't plan to fly in 1 year. OSSP, please answer my call!!!!!

very excited and happy after having a great gathering. i consider it as my "family day", 4 of us--the fantastic 4 celebrate the happiness of coming back home. we went to the dearest cafe--Leboss, had our simple but delicious dinner. we share our life. time didn't wait for us. most of the thing has changed. yet our brotherhood is still being preserved, deep in our heart. indelible. we still the closest companion ever. it is no wonder why we have planned to go to somewhere else, just 4 of us only. not too many, not too least, just pretty enough. i like this way. i m sure they like it too. we share same idea. we have non-end topic to talk about. glass by glass of beverage were being ordered. haha. the boss always smiling there. few hours of chatting ends because of the call by my mum, calling me go home. i use to it, often.

holidays, i should be happy plus celebrate hari raya too. dossier again ruin my holidays. i found hard to search my past year result. yet, i decide not to do it this year but next year as my friend told me that if i am not gonna to fly in one year. i shocked and i happy again. i don't want to do the dossier thingy which annoyed me, especially recommendation letter.

just enjoy the limited holidays, yea...

i visited someone in village mall today who visited us in SP and end up in oldtown coffee shop. Zixiang was coming back just for a while. we have a lot of conversation among each other. we chatted we laughed we smiled we shared.....time is precious...we talked for almost 2 hours and he was in hurry to visit his cousin. well, we were happy to meet him again, though we have been far apart more than years. our friendship still there, still robust. hopefully, it won't change.
yea, now SP is getting more people to come back. we're gonna to gather at least once, i hope. it's usual that everyone share their experience and life and of course some have changed a lot without my awareness. such as their bf/gf..
first day driving after 2 months away from car, i enjoyed it...
tomorrow would be the fantastic 4 gathering+dinner and perhaps it'll not be ruined by some others...

feeling is by sense, indescribable.....

first day back home

my 2 weeks holidays doesn't mean i am free....yet, i will have my busy holidays instead. hanging out with friends, having gathering and so on. but i enjoy these ways^^...
after visited my aunt in Ipoh just now for my first day of holiday, now i am waiting for the next event. tomorrow? perhaps....life in sp is always nice, with car of course....drive my way....speed, i love it so much!...

reach home

reach home and go out again.
met my best friends, kboon and fook.
and now going to sleep of course
on my lovely comfortable bed....
^^

ways to home...

the feeling of going back home is keeping me so excited and i can't sleep until the late morning as i am too eager to go back to home. i have packed my luggage and seems very heavy but lighter i think compared to my roomies...home sweet home..hopefully, i have a safe journey with all my friends..

bye cendana

bye intec

bye shah alam

happy holidays and happy hari raya as well...
enjoy the days!!^^


before the hectic life continues its story.....

bye! mid term...

yeah!!!!!
mid term is finished finally..say "bye!" to my 2 month of midterm..^^ though worried, but i just simply forgot about it and end with a charming smile. :)
first thing first, i 'm gonna hang out with friends right the last test finished. everything were just putting in bag and head to mid valley...
although our journey was tiring and even got some delay from ktm, yet we all feel excited. watching "Piranha" was quite thrilling of the monster fish which had been extincted about 2 million years and now appear again. i was quite excited enjoying the scene of American beach vacation. wow! pretty nice, man...haha...
waiting for the time to go, feel nice to go home now........
gigantic lollipops found in one cocoa shop at the Garden Mall....

3rd exam eve#last night..last subject....

tonight is the most relaxing. it could be seen that everyone don't know what to study, perhaps. i am also in the same boat. flipping through the textbook, i found that there are more about our understanding. it depends on our hard work from previous, not the exam eve. the hard work will paid. yet, i didn't. searching in internet, looking for some idioms. phew, there are few thousands of them. it's so impossible to memorize, even 10%. ridiculing if someone could memorize all of them. but there is a possibility. well, reading is actually my weakest subject. sometimes, i can't read between the lines through the passages. i feel very tired of reading every time. maybe i am not meant to reading. but reality comes first. i should face it every day now.

sometimes, i dislike someone of acting like a big cheese. i agree with some my friends. i have been biting the bullet today. of course, nothing could not be more realistic than money. donation or sponsor is based on someone's willingness, not by order. this is an order! OMG! where is the democratic system have gone?*sigh* this is a sarcastic. there isn't pride or prejudice of someone. it is just an expression of me and those who share the same feeling.

tomorrow is the LAST day. every night before exam, i share different feelings. today i am not so anxious anymore. i have been going through the toughest adventure today--Pre-calculus test. i believe i could do well and i should do well tomorrow......

in so cold morning, i have finished my math test. i believe that i did my best, but not answer the best. i am still scared of being near the line of failure again. anyway, it was over now. okay, don't think about it. i just have my 3 hours of gaming and now i am a bit lazy and wanna fall asleep. tomorrow is the last day before raya holidays on. i am so excited and eagerly wish that the test tomorrow will pass soon. yet, i haven't started my revision on reading subject. i just think that i have no one fixed referrence to study and it could not be studied and cover all of them.it's impossible. because reading is actually based on our maturity of understanding and answering. what i know i just know, otherwise, i don't know everything.
now i just hope that time can pass in faster way to Saturday. i ll be on the way back soon......hopefully, i won't ruined by the result of exam after holidays...

enjoy!

2nd test eve#pre-cal night

now there is the night of Pre-Calculus. wow. such an enjoyable night WITHOUT gaming. it is sarcastic. we enjoy ourselves in the world that full of marvelous numbers and solution. yea, i am almost getting crazy right now. i feel like hanging on the space. you could see my head pop out a lot of stars. wonderful! awesome! on no!!!!! sleeping is the most effective way of escaping stress and difficulties as i have mentioned in my essay. i should take a good good rest for my mind and me, mentally and physically. if i am home now, i won't sit here right now and scribble stupid thing right now. my mum would definitely scold me and even pull off the plug of my computer. it's true of course as we usually need at least 8 hours of sleeping time per day. because our part of body need to rest too right. tomorrow test i should and i MUST score high than ordinary. since my first test had pulled my marks on math, i need to score this damn high, otherwise i 'll be dead.*sigh* let's pray again for the test tomorrow. Amittaba..




sometimes you looked cute with your new change.....i am looking forward for that^^

gosh! finally i finished 1 test and quiz as well. although i have worried about it last night, but i seem quite okay in doing both. i know what i am doing and what i have done. i am not saying that i am perfect of getting damn high marks. i would be happy if i can pass above average. i rather underrate myself to avoid much disappointment when the result comes out. i am quite happy with my essay writing today. why? yes, i have just get the*kick*--inspiration, to scribble an essay which i am quite satisfying with. yet, i have broke the record which be the first person of finishing the quiz. i am the second today after yoon chye. some of the questions are really pawning me down. i have respawned again now. i believe that if i don't know the answer for questions, i would definitely don't know in the end, even though i struggle so hard. that's my principle. so, i better get off the hall where filled with the cold aura that kept me frozen. well, i have to rest. watching movie is better for me i think. "ice kacang puppy love"-a product of film from Malaysia. it deepen my thought on we should appreciate the person beside you, especially someone. don't regret if one day they have left you and you still keep silence. perhaps someone will know too. life is so unpredictable.......


love someone who you love...

exam eve...

almost 2 months i have been here. it was happened just a blink of eyes. now i am counting down the date to go home. another 3 days to go. just another i can sleep on my lovely bed at home, meet my dearest family and of course my 3 cute doggies. however, i have to pull through the ordeal before my sweet dream comes to me. i have to bear myself into study mode now. but the matter is that i don't have the mood to study now.!!! it's unknown of feeling now. i see my friend are quite equipped with the enough knowledge, they put me in stress now and i still don't get clear of what i am struggling damn hard to understand!!oh no!!!!i am going to suicide right now. it's just a joke. i don't feel i would study right now. i just raise my bet for the exam tomorrow. perhaps it will be not that worse as i think. let's pray for it. i admit that i can't master one language very well. this is a weakness of mine.
i feel bad now. my grammar is so suck. verb, tenses, part of speech....argh!! i am very confusing now!!*sigh*
i want to sleep now, and hope my wish will be fulfilled as i could just score my exams above average. i hope tomorrow i have the enough *kick* to write my essay and perhaps something that pop out in my mind would tune up my my essay.....
jiayou !!!!^^dont worried, be happy.

special post

this special post is directed to my friend ,Lee Yoon Chye. thanks him for getting me a Chat Box in my blog which i have been struggled for years. hahahaha.
thx my fren!

\MERDEKA EVE/

wow. really awesome. yesterday midnight we were having our *men talk session*. since long time ago, i never join myself in such big deal of chatting. what we were talking about? well, the topic of girl must not be absent. i felt nostalgia of telling all those of my *failure*. of course, i was pain when i faced the failure for first. no pain no gain. be reminded i am okay right now. ya i should. people should always look forward. slept for 4 hours did not adequate for me as i have my class on 8am. yet, i have my special weapon--nescafe...hahaha. i was getting the lowest marks for moral in my class and did not feel so bad when i realized i got a partner. but of course i am optimistic with my scores--15.5/20. ^^
yea! tomorrow we have a holiday again. our malaysia independence day 31 aug, previously, i often saw the acts of patriotism were painting the town with our nation flags, on cars, building and houses. however, i am wondering. i seem being isolated as i could found the car or most building hanging our nation flags, just a small amount did. they are not patriotic or maybe just the place here or throughout the entire Malaysia? 53 years of freedom destiny will move on after a decades? or just within a few years? not being colonized by others, but the problem that ruined our life. what problem? i should not comment on it, but as a caring and patriotic Malaysian, you should know and you must know. you should be omniscient of the issue that have been provoked nowadays. try to figure it out and come out with the solution based on our wisdom and justice, not by feeling and emotion. come on, our countrymen! let's Malaysia be well-known with its peace, justice and wisdom. on the contrary, not being infamous with the gang wars and crimes. the sonorous voice of unity and peace could be very loud if we stand by together and shout out with mighty power. Let’s the deafening roar stuns the world!

Ok, tomorrow is Hari Merdeka. wish my lovely country Malaysia would always peaceful and out of miseries. All the people let’s together shout, “merdeka!merdeka! merdeka!” for the only Malaysia.

1 malaysia.!!

fuckin stupid p1wimax!!!