simple folder...

As the time keep passing day by day, I m quite worried about my homework now. The homework given by teacher supposed to be finished up in the weekend and i procrastinated them. *sigh* I have learnt that procrastination is the thief of time such a long time ago. But i still never awake from the bad habit. Perhaps some days i would realize that not too late in case. Well, today's TOEFL class was very nice. Teacher want us to do a speaking test which using our laptops. Yet, i had not bring to school for today's test, though i knew it. She allowed us to find a place in school to do the test and we were allowed to follow a friend who has laptop, and could share using that. I did. However, the thing was that we both never do in school, instead we get confirmation from teacher that we did not need to go back to the lab even after we were done. Gosh! Nice chance for us to get back to hostel. We both quickly and happily rush to the bus and on the way back home. Of course, i had done the test just right now and gonna hand in tomorrow. i could actually take more time to deal with the test, but i didn't. I want to be truthful to myself. There would be a real test onwards but not now. I wanna test my ability to answer the speaking test, whether could cope with it or not.
There is a paragraph writing assignment and 10% would be given that particular work. When i see the deadline is about 3 days from now, i get lazy of doing the stuff already. again PROCRASTINATE. okay! I would be reminded to do it later TODAY!!!..i hope so.
And i had cleaned up my SAT stuff yesterday. there are quite a lot of handouts and paper tests. I had gathered them up and punched them and put them in a folder. A simple, non-special, just simple Folder which is quite meaningful for me. It is creating a pathway for me to recall the memory I have till now with someone who means to me very much. The way we talk, the way we smile, the way we happy about, the way we get close, the way we sitting side by side, the way i take care of you, the ways we have gone through our final learning life in secondary education. I'm sentimental indeed. I could not easily forget the that memory of that peculiar periods. It MEANS to me and as if it is one part of my life now and FOREVER. I would probably recall the scenes almost every night before i get into dream. I used to it and caused me so lonely, NOW! i used to feel like very down when the days i got the feeling someone don't bother much about me any more. i used to think pessimistic. i used to think the other way round. I did feel like wanna cry out a few times, but i didn't. it's so complicated sometimes as i could read the mind of someone thinking. i dare not to take initial step forward as i had learnt a lesson before that. *sigh*. I' m so useless. I' m so coward that sometimes i used to think. Even sometimes i wish to delete these part of memory in my life, but i didn't. why? Because I would always care about someone. someone who make my heart pound. someone who i would like to take care instead of others. I have considered it as my chores of my life. Miracle of love is never ending of take care. i care, i care everything of someone, i care and i don't want to disturb the coherence of someone life. Perhaps i would be forgotten.

life is just like a brief candle. why must bother too much? Happy always and we could feel contented. health is wealth. be healthy.


you are my health.....