failure..

as i said, life is so unpredictable.
and life is so fragile.
yesterday i saw my midterm test result.
it turned me down.
very very down.
i failed.
i failed of reaching even 2.75..
failure depress me.
i got very depressed of my result, inside, hardly outside could be seen.
why? why?
i began to worry, anxious of my ugly result.
getting 2 point something is actually out of my will.
i don't really think i could not pass. out of my expectation.
suddenly, i felt the gargantuan pressure pushing me, pushing me so hard, nearly suffocated.
sad. i cried inside. deeply inside. bad feeling.
i felt shame, very shameful. all of my friends have passed, some with excellence. there's nothing i can say. i was envy of their nice result.
3.8 awesome. yes, my FRIEND, lee sin, she got it. i am happy with that. yet, i felt i am so poor.
having some advices from some lecturers that we should take the result as some kind of visual effect or something. after seen, just forget, focus on final exam. i take it as a consideration.
i think, think and think.
yea. it should be that.
i should start now. not yet too late. perhaps next exam i could pull back my gpa to the cut off point.
there's the nightmare marred me for whole day.
took a deep breathe and slept.


today, i seem a little bit more recover from the shock i got. i started to read my non-fiction book.
think big by donald trump and bill zanker.
i like a quotation"every failure is a step on the way to success ".
i feel more comfort now.
i would like to put more effort on finding the solution to excel my study instead of dreaming my nightmare.

enjoy life
do what feel good